03x16 - Love and Death

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Previously on the real world...

[ Cory ] mohammed is a cool guy.

He seems to have a really

Good relationship with his girlfriend.

I care about her, you know what I mean ?

But it's just hard.

Your cd...

Your total helpers "t" cells are right now.

So that's a drop for you.

This is a warning sign for you

That you need to take really good care of yourself.

This is the true story...

True story....

Of eight strangers...

Picked to live in a house...

And have their lives taped...

Oh, lucy, I'm home !

To find out what happens...

When people stop being polite...

And start getting real.

Mtv's the real world, san francisco.

Are you getting hot ?

[ Pedro ] I don't know.

Your cheeks are hot.

Did you go out in the sun today ?

Yeah, I've been out in the sun.

I'll put the thermometer in and see.

I can't see the line.

But I could never see it, I can't figure it out.

Well, but is there a line ?

Before you put it in your mouth ?

Well, let's find out.

Anyway...

[ Cory ] pedro, it's something that I'm sure we've all feared.

It's a probability that he might get sick while he's here.

Have you drank any liquids ? In a while ?

I worry about him.

I worry about him all the time.

I don't know what to do with that worry.

I end up just wanting to baby him all the time

And be, like,

"Are you okay, what can I do ?"

No, no.

It's been there for two minutes.

Leave it there.

[ Pedro ] when I'm sick I don't want anybody around me.

I just wanna be alone.

I just want to, y'know, not deal with anybody.

It's been there for two minutes.

But at the same time I can't do that

Because of people that care about me.

They are concerned and they wanna know.

I can't read this.you've got the wrong end.

I don't know, where's pam ? Judd !

[ Laughs ] "where's pam ?"

[ Pedro ] hi, pam !

I'm having sex with cory

While I take my temperature at the same time.

I could do it, I'm very talented.

You're such a nerd !

[ Mohammed ] pedro is an incredibly cool person to me.

I have a lot of respect for him just opening up his life.

I have a lot of respect for his vision and his endurance,

And he has a good heart.

He's a very good-hearted person.

I stay up late not really able to sleep very well.

It takes me about an hour and a half to get to school.

It's really difficult for me to do my classes

And do work and everything else.

Time, I think that's kind of,

Like, some of the problems that I have

With the relationship that I have with stephanie.

I've been seeing stephanie for about six months now.

One more show, one more.

She's a ballerina.

I met her at my father's club one night.

Don't even care 'cause he still got the-- !

We exchanged numbers, went out on a date

And the rest was history.

♪ Work, music and university ♪

♪ Got a little money from my grand-mommie ♪

♪ All of them wanted to come to the parade of g-o-d ♪

♪ Because allah, allah he care for me ♪

♪ You know allah-allah-allah he care for me ♪that's fresh.

♪ Allah, allah he care for me ♪i like that one.

Stephanie's the kind of person

Who will request time from you, y'know,

As much as she can.

I will try as hard as I can now

When you call me to call you back.

And I do, I do.

Every time you call me, I always try to call you back.

I love stephanie a lot.

Y'know, I really care about her and I don't--

I don't know where our relationship's gonna go.

[ Pedro ] I went to this audition

For this interactive video about teens and sex.

Hi there.good to see you.

Good to see you.

Why don't you practice on page ?

You're gonna have to be heterosexual in the second.

Oh, I refuse to be heterosexual.

[ Laughter ]

Where does it say that that's a girl ?

It doesn't, it talked about marriage.

I spent years being heterosexual, so...

Comin' up.that's fine.

You got it.

, , ...

We're all trying to figure out our attitudes towards sex.

High school and college students

Who have been given good sex information

Are less likely to get pregnant or catch a disease.

Pedro, he's been really pushing himself real hard.

So then...

He's been working pretty long hours.

He's... He's been working very long hours.

The feeling that I remember the most, sitting there, is,

For six months I had this thought in my mind

That I could possibly be h.i.v. Positive.

But, every time it got too scary for me

I said, "no, I'm not."

[ Pedro ] it's very difficult to just focus on my body

And focus on the fact that I'm getting sick

And that I have to do something about it.

This, which is on videotape...

The reason that I work so hard and doing so much...

Give it all you got.

Was because I didn't have to think about

My disease as much.

All right.

I'm not gonna hover over you anymore.

Good night.

Okay.

Sleep tight.

All right, babe.

Thank you.

Oh sure.

I tend to... I'm the kind of person that

If I don't have or things to deal with or worry about

I don't feel good, y'know, I need that.

[ Whisper ] you are insane.

I'm insane ?

Yes, why don't you go to bed ?

I have to do just four more lines.

I know cory has talked to me

About being really worried about pedro.

What do you mean, four more lines ?

Well, most of the anxiety comes from my end of it too.

So that's what I'm doing.okay, four lines.

It's still really hard to sit down with somebody

And say, "dude, I'm really scared."

Boy !

"I'm really scared you're gonna die".

I'm going to bed now.

It's not healthy to work all the time.

And it's not healthy to always be giving without getting back.

Right, it's about finding a balance.

And I don't feel like I have that yet.

And part of it is because right now a lot of things are uncertain.

But they've always been uncertain.

I mean, my life for the past five years have been uncertain

Because the bottom line is that I don't know

What's gonna happen.

I could die in a year, I could die in three years.

I could die in five years.

Who knows, you know ?

But it's about finding a balance, you know.

I'm not sure.it is.

One day I will, before I die.

I'll find that damn balance in my life.

I do sometimes need a reminder to--

That I need to slow down, that I need to stop.

Last friday, for the whole day

I didn't leave the house.

I felt like a bum.

So, y'know, having sean around and having people around

To remind me that not only do I need to do that

But it's okay to do it.

When I talk to pedro--

You can't talk to pedro and have fun

And think about, "oh, he's gonna die."

It's just impossible.

I don't know if it's just because of that's who he is

Or your own mind.

I just don't think about him getting sick.

[ Pedro ] I tend to always be a very issue-oriented person.

It's kind of nice to sit back with rachel

And talk about stupid things

And talk about boys and, y'know, all that stuff.

I'm just having nostalgia about what it was like to be on a date.

I don't remember.

Well, I'm sorry I have a boyfriend and you don't.

It'd also be easier if sean was a little less...

Good-looking.

And good a cook.

Yeah, and doing cooking.

Sean's a very attractive man.

I think sean and pedro--

Their relationship's going good.

That is fine, that is not for you.

[ Rachel ] if you would stop necking in the kitchen

You wouldn't get so hot !

[ Laughs ]

I think knowing that pedro does have a clinical diagnosis of A*DS

It makes me want to take time to be with him.

Personal time and fun time and quality time.

[ Jo ] oh, no !

You didn't tell me that you and stephanie broke up.

Yep, last night.

It was hard.

I started to realize...

That I'd be hurting her more to stay with her.

Do you wanna talk tomorrow ?

I'll have all day tomorrow free.no.

I felt bad because I knew how much

Stephanie loved me and cared about me.

And I loved her, still, but it wasn't the same thing.

I didn't feel like, the same way about her.

It doesn't really matter now.

She's a really cool woman,

But there's something wrong going within me

In terms of the relationship.

So, after about three days of us going through it,

And I'm crying and she's crying...

Are you okay ? No.

We spent a week of trying to like, work it out

And it still didn't really change anything.

Are you gonna call me when you get home ?

You won't be here.

Can you page me and let me know you got home okay ?

I'm gonna wanna talk to you, mohammed,

I don't wanna just page you and be like,

"Hi, I'm here"-- you know ?

Okay, will you call and leave a message,

Let me know that you got home okay and I can check the message ?

I'll be fine, mohammed, don't worry about that.

You know ? I'll be okay.

Pedro is sicker than he has been.

Everything that's gone on has been very exhausting

And going to miami was a time for him to rest up.

It turns out that he was not feeling very well there.

My biggest concern is that...

It could be pneumonia.

Well, when pedro came back...

I kind of lied to him outright that he looked good.

He didn't, he looked a little thinner to me.

For about the past week and a half, two weeks, whatever,

I've been getting fevers.

Y'know, like, here and there.

Like every other day or something like that.

And I'm also getting-- I just sweat a little.

But I never sweat, which is--

So there's something going on.

[ Judd ] I was in denial for a while about that,

That pedro's gonna get sick now and again.

And instead of trying to ignore that fact,

Or even keep it from him, that I'm scared

I should kind of face it.

Now I'm totally out of breath.

[ Jo ] walking up the stairs ?

Walking up the hill.

Oh, did you have to park a way's away ?

No, it's really close, that's what's so bad.

Oh.

It's hard to run out of breath

Because you're constantly being reminded

That you have A*DS

And that there's something wrong with your body

And that you have to deal with it.

I know you're reading up on your diet and stuff and--

What do you, what is your strategy here ?

It's really hard for me to deal with being sick and my roommates

Because they don't know if to ask

Constantly how I'm feeling or if to offer help or--

They don't know how to react.

And so, they kind of dance around things.

[ Coughing ]

You just got warmer.

We're gonna have to call the clinic and ask for more.

Do you wanna do something ?

Sean is really good at taking care of me.

To take the medication in the morning.

He knows about it and he's h.i.v. Positive,

He could sit down with me and talk about

The medications I'm taking, about, changing my diet.

[ Rachel ] what's the number for the cab ?

---.

When I'm sick, I love spending time with sean.

It's just nice to be with somebody

That I know is willing to take care of me.

[ Thunder rumble ]

There's six of us, right ?

What do we do ? One piece for each person.

[ Mohammed ] where's pepe ?

He's not feeling very well, he's gonna stay at sean's tonight.

[ Cory ] I'm making mother's day cards.

That's cool.

[ Laughing ]

[ Phone rings ]

Hello.

Now it's going up again.

[ Pedro ] I found out that my temperature was .

[ Judd ] I was terrified.

I was really frightened

For all the same reasons that pedro was frightened.

A great many people with A*DS die from pneumonia.

The doctor said that I should go to the emergency room.

Don't be nervous, just go.

Just go so they can get it down.

They'll give you something, they'll get it down.

They'll check you out and you can go home.

[ Pedro ] judd was trying to convince me to,

"Yes, this is something you should do.

Go to the emergency room."

No, no, no-- nicky's gonna take us to the hospital.

[ Judd ] pedro and I have become very, very close.

Pedro's my friend.

What are you supposed to do when your friend's dying ?

And I'm probably just overreacting,

And I'm probably just being paranoid, but...

What are you supposed to do when your friend's dying

And there's nothing you can do about it ?

[ Pedro ] I came into the emergency room thinking,

"Am I gonna have to stay in the hospital,

If it's p.c.p. Or whatever it is ?"

And it was just really scary for me.

Even though everybody's time is indefinite,

It's weird to look at a person and know

That they only have a certain amount of time to live.

He doesn't give me any indication of like, being sick,

And he's so like, alive, y'know,

He's always doing stuff and he's always like--

I just-- I just don't register him as even being sick.

I did for a while really forget.

Like last night, it just made me wake up again and realize,

"My gosh, pedro is really struggling

With a lot of things."

That is such a heavy burden to be carrying around every day.

It's weird to have a relationship like that,

Knowing that the more you invest

The more you're gonna be hurt when that person's gone.

[ Judd ] pedro, when he got checked out,

Turns out he had pneumonia and they put him on medication right away.

It was caught as early as you could possibly catch it.

I'm lucky in the sense that it could've been a lot worse.

They gave me this antibiotic.

And then with the antibiotic

They gave you this pill so you can breathe better.

And they basically sent me home.

So I have to be on the treatment for days.

Welcome here !

♪ Pamela ling di-di-di ding ♪

How you doin' ?i'm telling my--

Your harrowing story ?

Yes, my horror stories, so...

I felt like everybody was just walking on eggshells.

They didn't know what to say.

I tell you, it wasn't that bad, I mean--

Did they give you any anesthetic or they just went for it ?

They just went for it.ooh.

But the artery's--really deep.

Yes.

Oh my god, it was so painful.

At one point I was like, screaming.

And he's like, stopping.

And I'm like, "don't stop, keep going.

"I just want to get it over with.

Let me scream."

I had to repeat the story, y'know,

Over and over again.

It was just, y'know, really tough to like,

Two days, it's like I don't wanna tell the story anymore.

It's like, "I went to the emergency room, I got p.c.p. And I'm okay."

It's been a minute and a half !

You keep opening your mouth.

It hasn't even registered.

Okay, you're talking.

If you don't stop, I'm gonna bend you over

And do it the right way.

[ Laughter ]

Hey, judd.yeah, mo.

Man, I called stephanie last night, man.

Pretty rough ?we just talked.

But I was the one crying this time.

Dude, I haven't cried in like, nine years.

Just needing to hear you more than anything else, you know ?

And having that voice and everything else comfort me.

I'm still kind of confused

And I told her about all the stuff that happened this weekend,

Me and sadie and stuff.

You did tell her ?yeah.

Tell you.

Hey, watch out.

Wah-da !

[ Mohammed ] sadie is a friend of mine from san diego.

It's been platonic and she knew I had a girlfriend and stuff.

But now... Y'know, when she came down that weekend

All of a sudden I didn't and it was like,

"Oh, so that's cool for us."

I wasn't sure whether I was doing it out of feeling like,

"Okay, I'm free from stephanie"

Or I wanted to see if the reason I broke up

Was that I wanted to be with someone else or what.

It felt cool and then it didn't feel cool.

And after sadie left I felt kind of weird about the whole thing

And I called stephanie up.

I know, that's what I'm saying,

It's been done and like,

I didn't sleep with her, you know what I'm sayin' ?

I think she would've tripped if we would've slept together.

But y'know, I was like, "we didn't sleep together," so...

Are you gonna see her again anytime soon ?

Um, I don't know, we might do something soon.

Come on now !

You're super-weak, dude.

[ Laughs ]

See... I'm skinny and quick.

Aw, man, damn !

You're so violent, dude.

I'm just quick, babe.you come like this--

I really don't see myself wanting to like,

Sleep with another woman or do something like that right now, so...

I'm trying to work on whatever me and her have

In terms of our friendship and stuff right now.

You didn't bring a knife, did you ?

Use a key.

If I'm doing it, I should've brought a knife.

Sorry, poor tree.

He'll get over it.

We're digging into your side.

"S.p..."

That's cute !

There you go.

Aww...

Heyyy.

Park-- swing around and park here.

[ Judd ] pedro, he's still on his medication,

But he's gained weight back, he looks great

And he's feeling a lot better than he has in months.

Oh, and then there's that smell.

[ Pedro ] we wanted to do something together as a group

So we all went horseback riding.

And I actually, uh, enjoyed it.

[ Cory ] my grandpa's horse name is "buckles".

Or was buckles.

Do you like attention ?

[ Pedro ] what's the lifespan of a horse ?

[ Man ] kind of like people.

Some people live to be a

Some live to be .

[ Laughter ]

But, uhh...on the average ?

On the average, I'd say some of 'em live .

But I'd say between and .

And ?yeah, he's .

He's still like a young sprout.

This is gorgeous, gosh.

[ Pedro ] homer's a good horsie.

Yeah, he is.

My friend pedro is sick.

And there are times he's gonna get sicker

And there's times he's gonna feel better.

And this is one of the times he got sick

And this is also one of the times he got better.

Homer's my buddy.

People bounce back,

And maybe I didn't give pedro enough credit

For being quite such a fighter

Which he is.

♪ You are my sunshine my only sunshine ♪

[ Everyone ] ♪ you'll never know, dear how much I love you ♪

♪ Please don't take my sunshine away ♪♪

On the next real world:

[ Cheering ]

We're going to hawaii.

[ Man over megaphone ] aloha !

Is this your favorite part, mike ?

This is definitely my favorite part.

What do you do in a wet suit ?

Pee in it and keep and yourself warm.

[ Judd ] rachel and jo found these guys to be

The funniest guys in the world.

Oh, they're so funny.

You stay away.

Come on, honey, let's wash our hands together.

Oh, god.

[ Cory ] right over here.

I don't like you when you turn to satan.

Ah !

If you were g*y you would do--

Stop it !

Please let me-- stop !

[ Laughing ]

[ Judd ] don't make me separate you two.

Anybody looking might think you're in love with me, pedro.

Of course.

I'm serious.

Just wishful thinking.