02x11 - Your Anxiety Is Giving Me Anxiety

[bunniefuu]

-What do you know about England?
-They have a king.

-They have a king.
-Gordon Ramsay!

Oh my God, of course Gordon --

how did I almost forget
Gordon Ramsay?

And a king that lives
in a castle.

England...

What'd you say
Ever may wiener?

In all Nantucket,
they all wankers.

-[short whimper]
-Nantucket.

-I'll hit, like, my...
-[Dr. Flaherty] Mm-hmm.

...chest.
-How is your physical pain?

Terrible.

I wanna ask you about
this device called Neupulse

that you wear
that helps your tics.

If you did wanna try it,
you'd have to go to the UK,

I'm afraid.
It's not available here.

I don't like the idea
of flying over water

the entire time.

So you're actually more
nervous than me to fly?

Yeah.

If this device actually
works for Baylen,

it would be a complete
game-changer for her.

But taking a trip to the UK is
not the most realistic thing

to do right now.

With wedding planning
right now, it's just not

in our budget.
-Hmm.

[Allen] Even if Baylen can't
bring the device home with her,

the intrinsic reward of it
is knowing that it would provide

her hope if it worked.

What's up, Dad?

[Allen speaking]

-[Baylen] Oh my God, really?
-[Allen] Yeah.

Thank you so much.
It's exciting.

[Colin] Yeah, thank you, guys.

-We're going to London.
-[Colin] Yeah, we are.

'Ello, 'ello.

I couldn't be
any more grateful.

♪♪ Put my hands up
for a good time ♪♪

♪♪ Everything is
gonna be all right ♪♪

♪♪ Everything is
gonna turn out fine ♪♪

Oh, she's got Virgin Mary
in her window.

Oh, I love that.

-Virgin d*ck.
-OK.

Hands to yourself.

Well, please
let go of my hand.

Peace up, A town.

f*ck you.

-Old b*tch.
-That's why we got
child lock on.

[short whimper]

Ever since my parents called
me to let me know

that they're gonna be paying
for the whole family to travel

to London for me to try
the Neupulse device,

things are moving
at a rapid pace.

And we're leaving for the UK
at the end of this week.

But first, we have a meeting
to check in

with our wedding planners.

The last time that we saw them,
they seemed a little bit

concerned that
they'd be able to fit

all of our wedding dreams
into our budget.

So honestly,
I'm a little nervous

with what they have
to tell us today.

-Hi, how are you guys?
-Hi, you guys.

They did ask to meet us
at a flower shop,

so I'm hoping
that's a good sign.

I mean, you can't get bad news
when you're surrounded

by flowers, right?

Right?

I don't know.

Maybe they think
it's gonna soften the blow.

-Soften the blow.
-Yeah.

-How are you guys? -- Yeah?
-We're good, we're good.

I'm a little nervous to hear
what you guys have to say.

-A little nervous -- OK, well...
-d*ck!

Sorry.

After meeting with Baylen
and Colin for the first time,

we left feeling
slightly concerned.

With all of the different
add-ons that they wanted --

the horse, the llamas.
-The alpacas.

The fondue fountain.

[Shannon] Yep.
Yep.

We had to go back
and take all of their dreams,

compare it to their budget,

and see what
we could make work.

So we definitely have news
for Baylen and Colin today,

and I'm not sure that it's news
they're gonna wanna hear.

Wedding planning
can be a little scary.

-Like every decision that
comes through is just, like,
-d*ck.

always, like, shock
at what each thing costs,

which you don't normally go
through on your daily life, so.

Yeah, after we last met,
we went back,

talked about your priorities,
started reaching out

to different vendors --
photography,

videography, catering.

We got some numbers,
got availability

and everything like that.
-Um, here's the deal.

So I think we have
a decision to make.

So we have to do
one of two things.

One would be to
adjust our expectations.

Or we could
increase the budget.

What didn't fit
into the budget?

We can fit everything
into the budget.

It's just that each category
gets shrunk down

based on things
like your venue selection.

And that's because that's
what we've made so far, right?

-[Baylen] Mm-hmm.
-[Shannon] OK.

Baylen and I sat down
and came up with realistic goals

and dreams and looks
for the wedding.

And we set aside a number

that we could be able
to attain those.

And we are at our capacity
at that number.

So I think what we should do
today is we're gonna go back

into the cooler here, and --
-Ooh, the cooler.

-[Shannon] Yeah -- yeah.
-Yeah, frisky.

-Sorry -- sorry.
-I love it.

We're gonna look
in the cooler.

We're gonna see
what they have, right?

We're gonna pick out some
flowers because this is really

an area where we can play
around so that we can adjust

our expectations of what
we're gonna walk in

on the wedding day.
Does that sound good?

-Yes.
-[Shannon] OK, perfect.

Let's head back
into the cooler.

[Baylen]
OK, thank you.

I think it's gonna be a fun
challenge to figure out

what I like
and what I don't like

and if it fits
into our budget or not,

'cause this could
really be an avenue

that we save money on.

It's kind of like
a Pinterest game,

not like a tent -- tet --

What is it -- what is it called
where you can fit

everything in certain areas?

Tintrest, Pint -- not Pinterest.

-Tetris!
-[producer] Oh, Tetris, OK.

Yes.

[Shannon] All right,
here we go, guys.

[Baylen] Oh, wow.

-Oh, she's chill.
-Yeah.

So, Colin,
we have a bucket for you.

You have an important job.
You get to hold the flowers.

-[laughs]
-All right.

♪♪ Ooh, ooh, ooh ♪♪

♪♪ Till I know what I want ♪♪

[Baylen] Oh, I love those ones.

-I'm like, I love colors,
so it has to be colorful.
-[Shannon] Yeah!

[Baylen] I love these.

The three most important things
to have at the wedding is

the dress, the food,
f*ck you --
-And the horse.

Ride the horse -- no!

That's like the 19th thing
on the list.

It's food, the dress,
and flowers.

-We've got peach.
-Is that lavender?

-Light purple.
-What is that?

-It's not lavender.
-[Baylen] OK.

I can't do lavender
'cause it sets my tics off.

Whoo-hoo, whoo-hoo, whoo-hoo!

Lavender is an absolute no to
have at the wedding for flowers

because they set off my tics,
which is really disappointing

because they're really
pretty flowers.

But because the smell
sets off my tics,

it doesn't really make me
upset that I can't have it.

I love these.

For budget, roses,
they're actually not gonna be

sold as a package like this.

-They're gonna be sold per stem.
-Good to know.

We need some oranges.

[Shannon] Hydrangea are great
because they're huge,

and they take up a lot of space.
-Huge.

[Shannon]
We love it.

And those.

All right, let's keep moving.

-You good?
-Yeah.

[Shannon] We're almost done,
Colin, I promise.

Oh my God!

-[Shannon] Amaranthus.
-[Baylen] Droopy dicks.

-Yeah.
-d*ck.

OK.

-[Baylen] Oh man, I ticced
and broke the flower.
-[Colin] She broke a flower.

-[Baylen] Are we gonna
have to buy that?
-[Shannon] Maybe.

[Baylen] OK.

That'll look good
in our living room.

[Shannon] Yeah, I love it.

[Shannon] OK, so now we're gonna
head over to the design studio,

and they're gonna start to put
this stuff together for us.

-[Patricia] Hi, how are you?
-[Shannon] Hi there.

-Good, how are you?
-[Patricia] Good.

Awesome.
Have we got some stuff for you.

Today is all about figuring
out how much we have

and want to spend on flowers.
-OK.

So thinking about maybe
a round table...

-OK.
-With all of these.

-OK.
-It also can't be too...

Like, I'm looking
at this behind us,

and I'm thinking that
that's a little bit too big.

I have Tourette syndrome
and sometimes a lot of things

on like a sweetheart table --
-[Patricia] OK.

just with my tics,
everything is, kind of, gonna

get ruined, [short whimper].
-[Patricia] Sounds good.

So we're looking for
a garden style, multicolored,

whimsical, fun?
-All of that.

-You got it.
-And more.

OK.
Let's get started.

So I'm gonna take
some of this hydrangea.

This is gonna take up a lot
of space in the arrangement.

That's why I'm putting it
in first.

Get your foundation going
and then you're gonna put

the small one on top.
-Foundation d*ck.

-[Patricia] Yeah.
-[Baylen] I love this.

-This is like art.
-[Shannon] Absolutely.

b*tch, [short whimper].
g*dd*mn.

Whoo-hoo, whoo-hoo,
whoo-hoo!

Mm-hmm.

[Baylen] I love all
the colors together.

Reminds me of my personality.

[Shannon]
A little all over the place?

Yep, a little all
over the place.

A little bit of everything.

[Shannon] A little bit
of everything.

Oh my God, this is
making me really happy...

[Shannon]
Yay!

It is so thrilling and fun
to see my vision come to life.

And it be, like,
the perfect size.

Like, it's not too big,
it's not too overwhelming.

-Do you like it?
-Mm-hmm.

It's a lot.
There's a lot in there.

I just start seeing
dollar signs everywhere.

[blows raspberry]

OK, there you go.

Those are all the flowers
that you picked out.

-[Baylen] Oh, I love that.
-Yeah?

How much would this cost?

So, I'm gonna count up
all the stems that we added

in there, and then I can get
the end number on that.

-OK?
-[Baylen] OK, sweet.

I didn't know
you spoke French.

Neither did I,
until I started ticcing it.

So with the container here
and the greenery design...

If I had to give a rough
estimate, I would probably say

it's gonna cost
anywhere between seven

and eleven thousand dollars

for the amount of flowers
that Baylen is thinking of.

[short whimper]

Whoo-hoo, whoo-hoo, whoo-hoo!

I've always had anxiety
about flying.

I'm like nervous for him
now too, 'cause I'm like,

"Can you hold it
together for her?"

I don't know how he's gonna
react if they're in line

and she's saying things --
"I got a g*n, I got a b*mb."

[Colin]
Do you think you can sit this...

[Baylen] d*ck.

...while I get
your stuff situated?

-Need her ID?
-[Baylen] Take a d*ck, moron.

Shut up, b*tch.

[short whimper]

How much would this cost?

So, I'm gonna count up
all the stems that we added

in there, and then I can get
the end number on that.

In God's name, amen.

I'm pretty nervous to hear
the price tag on this.

I don't wanna have to cut back
on what I love,

and the flowers and the colors,
so I'm really hoping that

whatever I put together,
whatever she's put together,

fits into our budget.

So, centerpieces can cost
you anywhere

from $100 up to $1,000,
depending on the flowers

that you are using.

With the container here

and the greenery design,

probably looking at around $100.

-[Shannon] Oh, OK.
-[Patricia] Mm-hmm.

Yeah.
That's actually really good.

Suck a d*ck.
Sorry.

The name "Baylen"

and the word "saving money"

doesn't really go together
a whole lot

in the same sentence.

So, it's surprising to hear
that this flower arrangement

actually fits into our budget.

I mean, it actually
gives me some hope.

For this wildflower look,
it's kind of nice because

you do get all of those more
delicate florals in there.

I am thrilled that what
I've wanted this entire time

has fit into our budget.

I don't really
have expensive taste.

I just like colors.

-It's been an experience, yeah.
-This way.

-[Patricia] Yeah, there you go.

-Oh, so pretty.
-Can you take a picture?

So, that's all I was
interested in was which colors

do I like the best, not which
flowers do I like the best.

OK, guys, so great
job today.

I think you guys
really nailed it.

-And Patricia nailed it --
-Nailed it m*therf*cker.

-Eat a bag of chips, f*ck.
-And next up,

we've got more work
to do, Chris, right?

[Chris] Sure do.

We've picked out
centerpiece florals.

-We've picked out
bouquet florals.
-[Baylen] That's yours.

-For Narnia!
-So, next step

will be to design
your wedding in terms of

what you wanna see
at your ceremony.

So based, how -- about all
the information that we found

out today with the florals,
are we still going to still

have to, like, raise our budget
or cut things, or...

We're gonna have to see.

We still have to go back
and check out

all of our other vendors,
and see what we can

fit into this budget and see
what kind of rates we can get

and magic we can we can
pull together.

-All right.
-OK.

While we're relieved that
Baylen's floral taste comes in

at a less expensive line
of florals, and that's great,

what remains to be seen is

the entire scope
of the wedding.

For Narnia!

Now, they've committed
to a venue that is a little more

money than what
we typically recommend,

and it doesn't include catering,
so now we have to go

find catering
and all of the other vendors.

We have to build the entire
design plan for the rest

of the wedding and stationery,
rentals, linens,

forks, knives, everything.

So, all of those things
will add up.

And so, we're gonna have
to be cognizant of it

as we move on
throughout the planning process.

[Baylen] Colin, pretend
you're my dad right now

and you're walking down
the aisle -- just kidding.

[laughing]

♪♪ We wake up like this,
we wake up like this ♪♪

♪♪ While we want to sleep,
we're waking up in spite of... ♪♪

♪♪ Take me please ♪♪

I knew going in, there are
probably going to be a few items

that we're going to have
to cut or that we're gonna

have to, like, downsize,
if that makes sense.

I mean, if she does say that,
you know,

we can't have
the wedding venue

because it doesn't fit
in our budget, I mean,

that's obviously something
that we don't wanna hear.

I know, like,
in a lot of different ways,

there's areas to save money,
and I'm down to save money,

But in one way,
I'm not down to save money

by taking the wedding venue
off the table.

-I'm not doing that.
-Yeah.

[Baylen] It's pretty devastating
to be so far along

and then wonder if we need to
change our wedding venue or not.

It's kind of not
where we want to be.

It just adds extra stress.

Like, the budget that we have
should be able to have

a wedding there, and if that
number is not enough somehow.

Why not just save the money then

and get married legally
at a courthouse?

And then...you didn't
spend any money.

[tense music playing]

I mean, yeah,
but then you have no wedding.

I mean, not gonna lie, I would
rather have the wedding

in the backyard
than go to a courthouse.

All right.
That's a hot take.

I want a real beautiful
dream wedding,

because a couple years ago,
I would have never

pictured myself being
with the love of my life

or even meet somebody
that's willing to love me,

especially with everything
that I've been through.

So it will definitely be very
devastating if Shannon

and Chris can't fit all
of our wedding dreams

into our budget.

All right, well,
first things first, we...

-Suck a d*ck.
-...need to figure out --

What the...

[Baylen] First things first --

in Nantucket,
they're all wankers.

First things first,
we really have to focus

on getting ready
to leave for London.

I'm gonna be honest,

I'm pretty excited
to go to the UK.

I'm, like, really excited to go
to the UK,

but if I get too excited,
then my tics are gonna get bad,

so, you know, we gotta narrow it
back down a little bit.

[short whimper] In Nantucket,
they're all wankers.

I've always wanted
to go to Europe.

I've always wanted to travel,
and this is just, like, my foot

out the door of doing that.

Yeah, I mean,
I'm really excited too.

I've never been
to that side of the world.

[Baylen] I'm just really,
really blessed,

my parents were able to find

the money to make
this work for me.

My mom has been working
at lightning speed to get

everything working for us to go
to London by being in contact

with these Neupulse
device people.

And I am so excited to finally
be able to try this incredible

device that hopefully
will help with my tics.

We have to go all the way
to the UK to try Neupulse

because it's not for sale
or approved by the US yet.

It's just crazy to think
this little device

that you can wear,
that's not invasive

could drastically help
and improve my life forever.

[blows raspberry]

Going to the UK,
it doesn't even feel real.

I've always have had...

anxiety about flying.

I...am perfectly fine
in the airport.

I can help you navigate
through the airport.

-Once my --
-When we're in the air.

Yeah, once my feet
are not on the ground,

that's when I have a problem.
-When it's out of your control.

Yes.

I hate my life being
in someone else's hands.

I hate that.

That's why I don't like
taking rideshares.

If they mess up or if something
goes wrong and they don't know

how to fix it, I'm dead
because they didn't know

how to do their job.
I don't like that.

On an international flight
over water.

[Baylen]
You're allowed to have anxiety.

You're allowed to, like,
feel the things that you feel.

However, I also have
anxiety, too.

So when we're flying together,
I can't really hear,

"We're all gonna die."

Like, I can't hear that
on the plane.

Like, I won't talk
to you the entire time.

Like, and then you'll just be
sitting there squeezing,

like, the -- the stress ba*ls,
because that type of stuff

gives me more anxiety
than anything,

and I'm not telling you to,
like, "Suck it back in,"

and, like, not explain, like,
what you're feeling.

All I'm saying is that
it's gonna be very difficult

with two people that have
flying anxiety to fly together.

That is a interesting combo.
Virgin d*ck.

-[Colin] OK.
-[Baylen] Yee-haw.

For the wedding, I think...

we should maybe
ask my parents for some help.

[short whimper]

I don't wanna ask them

for any kind of money
or anything like that.

I hate...

asking other people for money.

[Baylen] OK.

[grunts]
Here we go.

[laughing]
That should be enough.

Colin, do you think this is...

[normally]...enough clothes?

[Colin]
Are you serious, Baylen?

We're going there for a week,
not a month.

Tomorrow night, we are going
to London, England,

and I am so excited.

However, I have no idea
what to pack for the UK,

so I'm gonna pack
as much as possible.

Just saying.
It's good to have options.

You're bald, b*tch.

You're ball-less.
[short whimper]

You're a little all over
the place, but...

I have a nine-inch dildo.
Sorry.

[Baylen laughs]

All right.

You're worried about
your tics over there?

Yeah.

Just your, like, British tics
that you got?

-Or all of them?
-All my tics.

I don't know how British people
respond to Tourette's.

Americans don't really respond
to Tourette's very nicely.

So...

There's a lot of tics
going to London,

I'm nervous about, like,
my British accent tics.

It just worries me that
I'll be in a conversation

and then they're gonna think
I'm starting to mock them.

Just not knowing
how the people in the UK

will respond to my tics
is very...unsettling.

I'm just worried particularly
because I could get arrested

by calling a bald person bald.

You're not gonna get arrested
for calling someone bald.

In London, it's now been
passed as a law that it is

harassment for calling a bald
person bald in a workspace.

Good thing that you're not
in a workplace environment.

Yeah.

I learned that it's ill*gal
to call someone bald

in a workplace in the UK,
like, two days ago.

It actually just randomly
popped up on my social media

on a random Tuesday,
and I, like, read it,

and I immediately,
like, started panicking.

And I was like, "What do I do?"

It was probably
God sending me a sign.

Get -- get the suitcases.

Do you have any of your stuff
semi-ready or no?

[Allen]
My whole life's unready.

Once we finalized the decision
that we would all go to London,

I reached out to Neupulse
and they graciously accepted

to meet up with Baylen so that
she could test out the device.

So my mom is going to come
and, kind of, help us out

with the three boys
so that we can be present

for Baylen's
Neupulse appointment.

[Allen]
Oh, this looks British.

Oh, that'll be good, 'cause it's
gonna be chilly there, I think.

Yeah, it's like it's lamb
or something.

[both] Yeah.

It's beyond exciting
to know we are going there.

She's gonna get
to try on this device.

It could alter the trajectory
of her life, really.

What are you looking forward
to the most?

[Allen]
I don't know.

If you wanna think about food,
then just breads

and scones or whatever,
little croissants.

I don't know.

Just muffins, biscuits,
tea crumpets.

I wasn't talking -- I was
talking about adventures.

I wasn't talking about food.

We clearly have to eat
while we're there.

Yeah, I would hope so.

But I'm really more excited,
too, for the boys,

for your mom.

And I think the more people
around, like,

giving Baylen some support
to go, I think that's a plus.

Traveling in Baylen's
condition is so unpredictable.

She could get
so mentally overstimulated

that she's in the fetal position
on the floor

for three,
four days.

Going with them on this trip
allows us and Baylen

the support system
that she needs.

Dingleberry.

She was a fairy.

Colin...

do you like this dress?

Yeah, it looks like
a wedding dress.

What?

-It's not a wedding dress.
-Well, it looks like it.

[Baylen] Speaking of...

I know both my parents
wanna be included,

they wanna be doing
something for the wedding.

I think we should maybe ask
my parents for some help.

[short whimper]

[sighs]

Build that dildo.

[blows raspberry]

I wouldn't mind asking them
for help as far as...

maybe asking your dad
to build a few things for us.

But I don't wanna ask them

for any kind of money
or anything like that.

I hate...

asking other people
for money, you know?

I mean, I know that
from things in the past,

like, you and my dad
don't really have

the best track record
with being buddy-buddy.

But maybe it would help
if you guys spend

some time together,
like in London.

It would mean the world to me
for my dad and Colin

to spend a little bit of time
together in London.

[clicks tongue]

In Nantucket
they're all wankers.

Colin and I are
gonna be married,

and he will eventually
become part of the family.

So if Colin wants
the relationship to improve

with my dad, both him
and my dad need to make

that next step in order
for the relationship --

[short whimper] --
to get dicked down in Dallas --

to grow.

Finding out about
Colin's anxiety about flying...

[Julie] Yeah,
that was surprising to hear.

...has definitely made...

me a little, [exhales]...

more at ease about going.
-Well, it makes me happier

to be part of this.
-Yes.

So Colin's in the Air Force,

and hearing
that he has flight anxiety

is a little ironic.
Just think to myself,

if I had anxiety about flying,
would I join the Air Force?

I don't know.
I don't know.

[Julie]
It's just a misconception.

Not everybody in the Air Force

enjoys being in the air,
I mean he --

No, I'm gonna bet
there's a high probability that

the first word of the job
you just signed up for,

it says, "air."

I'm gonna bet at some point,
you're probably gonna be in it.

This isn't like an everyday,
normal flying experience.

Like, you're flying
a long distance.

You're out of the continental
United States.

You are out of the grasp of
all the safety and comfort zone

that you've ever had
in your life.

You are now in another country.

I guess I'm slightly concerned
that nervous energy pours over

onto her, because she can
barely handle herself

to begin with.

Yeah, I mean, I don't
need her fainting.

I'm like nervous
for him now too.

'Cause I'm like, "Can you hold
it together for her?"

I don't know how he's gonna
react if they're in line

and she's saying things --
"I got a g*n, I got a b*mb,

I got a this,"
or she needs to pause,

or -- or, "Hang on,
I can't move."
-Yeah.

Or, "My arm,"
like whatever it is.

Is he not only gonna be
able to do that --

there's one thing to be able
to do it in your apartment,

in your comfort,
but it's another to be able

to do it in an unknown location
around unknown people with...

like an unknown result.
-Yeah.

I think this'll, uh...

this will be a good test
for all of us.

[Baylen]
We're here.

How far -- d*ck --
how far away are you?

Yeah.

I just really need
to get through this

as quickly as possible.

[short whimper] -- bald b*tch.
Take a d*ck, moron.

[Allen]

[Julie] The rideshare's
gonna be here.

-No, we are not driving.
-This is gonna be epic.

We're leaving for London
in approximately 30 minutes,

and the process of getting
everybody ready is

unsurprisingly not
the easiest task.

What age can you get
a tattoo in London?

[Julie] You think
they do tattoos at 11?

What age can you get
a legal tattoo in London?

-Oh, I thought it said, "any."
-What is it?

-18
-Oh, yeah, 18.

If I could get a tattoo
in London, I would probably get

a cross with Jesus hanging
from it, either on my back,

chest, or arm, right here.

[Vick] OK, dude.
OK, bro.

[Sven] OK, dude.

I mean, you think that we would
even take time

to get you a tattoo?
-I mean, I hate to say it,

you look four, so.

I really hope things are
going more smoothly

for Baylen,
but luckily she doesn't have

as long of a drive
to the airport.

[Baylen] What kind of food
do you think they have
in London?

I don't know what kind of food
they're gonna have

over in London.
I mean...it doesn't matter.

The fact that
they don't have ranch is

the biggest disappointment.

[Baylen] Don't worry,
we should have enough.

When I found out that we were
going to London,

I started doing some research
and found out that

well, they don't sell
ranch dressing over there.

However, ranch
is everything to us.

We love ranch -- we need you
to put the ranch away.

[short whimper]

[Colin]
Yeah, it goes with anything.

There's some restaurants here
that don't sell ranch,

and we'll go there,
and I'm like, "I'm never coming

back here."
-We're not leaving

without the ranch,
so I'm gonna bring my own.

[Colin]
I'm gonna miss you guys.

[Baylen]
I love you so much.

Baylen, we got to get
to the airport.

I know, hunky man.
Come here, hunky man.

We'll be right back.
We'll come back --

This is the sh*t
I'm talking about.

Oh, Fluff, I know.

[Baylen] Colin's comments
are not helpful at all,

especially before
we get on a --

I don't even know,
how long of a flight, so...

zip it.

[Allen]
All right, let's go.

-♪♪ You know I'm the moment ♪♪
-[Julie] I think we're good.

♪♪ Big moves gonna own it,
new house, green trees, hey ♪♪

♪♪ You wanna be like me,
like me... ♪♪

[music continues]

'Ello.

The rideshare driver's bald.

Off to a great start!

Bald b*tch.

Make sure when we get
there that we have to go

to the counter to get
disability assistance.

-OK.
-Make sure you don't forget.

-I won't forget.
-All right.

We'll get you your wheelchair.

When I flew to TIC-CON
last year with my mom,

it was a disaster.

I'm very anxious.

I mean, I -- mm.

Whoo-hoo, [short whimper].

Bo Jangles.

We're all gonna die.

And that was a domestic flight.

So, looking ahead into London
and flying there,

that's a way bigger flight.

I want to make sure
that everything goes

smoothly and perfect.

So, with disability assistance,
an attendant puts me

in a wheelchair and they help me
navigate the airport,

especially going through
airport security, TSA,

which I hope helps my anxiety.

I'm glad it's a plane
that's going overnight, though,

because then I get to take...
-[sighs]

...my sleep pills
and my drowsy pills

and not, like, have it
throw off my day, you know?

I just hope we have
an experienced captain.

That's all I hope for.

[Baylen] Babe, I don't need
any more anxiety.

You're supposed to be telling
me that we're gonna be fine.

[Colin] Hopefully,
we're gonna be fine.

As we get closer,
I'm, like, freaking out

and screaming on the inside.

And I know that Allen is always
watching me to make sure

that I'm taking good care
of Baylen.

So, I really hope that
no matter what level of anxiety

that I do have, that I'm able
to show her parents

and everyone
that I'm able to help Baylen

throughout the airport,
no matter what.

I see the airport.
I have a knot in my tummy.

There's a lot of cars here.

Seeing a crowded airport
before we even step inside

makes my stomach
absolutely drop.

Oh, my f*ck!
[exhales]

Stay with me.

The hardest part is really
from the door to the gate,

because I get a lot
of overstimulation from people,

which ends up making
my tics a lot worse.

g*dd*mn.

Whoo-hoo, whoo-hoo, whoo-hoo!

-Oh, my God.
-[Colin] How are you doing?

-Need her passport, ID?
-[Baylen] b*tch.

Whoo-hoo, whoo-hoo, whoo-hoo!

[short whimper]

Eat a bag of chips,
m*therf*cker.

When I tic around employees
or TSA agents, I just feel bad.

Little baby wieners,
[larynx yelp].

I just hope that they don't
take offense and understand

that I have no control over it.
We're all gonna die.

-[short whimper]
-On our account, can you see

that we had disability
assistance on there?

-[employee] Yes.
-[Colin] OK.

It's such a relief to have
Colin there to help me

get through the airport,

but my family
hasn't arrived yet,

and the sooner
that I can get in the wheelchair

and head to the gate,
the better my tics will be.

I have Tourette syndrome,
stupid.

They shouldn't
be far behind us.

-Wait, she's calling me.
-OK.

-[Baylen] Hey, Mom.
-Hi.

-[Allen] Holy sh*t!
-Holy goodness,

you answered my call.

Yeah, it's a miracle.
We're here.

Oh, yeah, we're here.

Wait, that's what we're trying
to figure out.

We don't know how far -- d*ck --
how far away are you?

Yeah.

You're not gonna wait for us.

OK, so you're gonna start
the TSA Cares process

without us?
-[Baylen] Yeah.

-OK.
-[Baylen] Yes.

Colin's cool with lugging
all the bags and pushing you

and all the things?
-[Baylen] Yeah.

-[Julie] OK.
-Just let us know
when you're here.

-[Julie] OK.
-[short whimper]

-OK, I love you.
-I love you, too.

I love you, honey.
Thanks for answering the phone.

OK, bye.

Gosh.

I think once we hear that
Baylen and Colin are gonna

move on through the airport
and go through security

on their own, that's
a good sign in a lot of ways.

It builds her confidence.
It builds a sense of,

"I'm not so terrified to do
this -- it's just a process,"

and I think she's getting
used to it, so...

it's reassuring me
that these things can be done.

That said, getting Baylen
through this portion

of the airport is difficult,

and anything could happen.

[short whimper] -- bald b*tch.
Take a d*ck, moron.

Whoo-hoo, whoo-hoo, whoo-hoo!

[short whimper]

-[Colin Do you think
you can sit this...
-[Baylen] Yeah.

...while I get
your stuff situated?

[Baylen]
Yeah.

Having wheelchair assistance
this time makes it so much

easier going through the airport
and TSA because I don't

have to wait in a line
full of people.

Shut up, b*tch.

[short whimper]

And I didn't tic anything
that was offensive

or embarrassing,
so I'll take it.

That's a huge relief.

Huge.

[gasps] There they are.

How was it going
through security?

It was honestly...fine.

I still have
some anxiety about flying,

but I'm excited to get there.

I'm most excited for Neupulse.
What are you most excited for?

-d*ck!
-Uh...

Actually,
I'm most excited for, um...

landing.

-Being alive,
being in the moment.
-Oh my God, Colin.

Oh my God.
It's Colin 2.0.

[imitates airplane noise] --
pew!

-We can go ahead and pre-board.
-[Baylen] Right now?

-[Colin] 42 -- we can pre-board.
-OK, 42.

[Julie] She's gonna pre-board.
Does she have her ticket?

You have your ticket
and everything?

OK.

[short whimper]

[short whimper]

[short whimper]

As we're walking the terminal
to get onto the plane...

My legs are locking up.

[Colin] Mm-hmm.

OK -- OK.

This is one of my worst fears.

We have to get
all the way to row 75,

and my legs
won't stop locking up.

And the only thing I keep
thinking about is

I have 100 people behind me,
and I can't move.

-There's a lot of seats.
-Is there anyone behind us?

-Yep.
-Because my legs are locked.

Yep.

We got a long way to go, Baylen.

-All of them.
-Holy crap!

-There's a lot of seats.
-Is there anyone behind us?

-Yep.
-Because my legs are locked.

Yep.

We got a long way to go, Baylen.

Pre-boarding definitely
helps me avoid

being in a crowded area.
[short whimper]

But now that I'm on this plane,
this giant plane,

I -- [short whimper]
have a new level of anxiety.

[short whimper]

All these people are about
to be sitting around me...

...for eight hours.


We're right here.

[exhales] Sick.

Who knows what lies ahead with
Colin's anxiety and my tics?

[short whimper] I have
Tourette syndrome, stupid!

[Allen] You OK?

-You sweating?
-Yeah, there's no air.

Are you OK?

[Allen]
I love this f*cking airline!

Baylen and Colin have
made it to their seats

without any major disasters.

But this is also just
the beginning of the trip.

[airplane announcement]
What is this?

I believe it's
a safety card, ma'am.

[flight attendant]
Please have a good look at your
safety card before we depart.

And if you have any questions,
just ask your cabin crew.

You need to meet
the pilots too?

I just need to see
what they look like.

I can't have a 19-year-old
flying this thing.

I don't really
wanna think about that.

-Lightning?
-[indistinct]

You guys good?
Colin, you fidgety?
You all right?

Yeah.

It's extremely difficult not
to worry when you see

Colin's anxiety overflow
into affecting Baylen.

Oh, I'm gonna make myself dizzy.

-There we go.
-Whoo-hoo, whoo-hoo, whoo-hoo!

There's a lot of people that
I know that are frequent flyers,

and they just don't
really care.

I'm not that person.

[flight attendant]
Thank you, cabin crew.

Please take your seats
for takeoff.

Take your d*ck off.

Is there a way to
see statistics?

[Baylen] Time to go to sleep.

Go to bed, babe.

[Colin] Why is there a cop
next to our plane?

[Baylen] Take a d*ck.

[tense music playing]

[ding]

[ding]

[Baylen speaking]

I am extremely
concerned for Colin.

It's definitely worrisome to
watch anybody go through that

and to know that they're
sitting with my daughter.

It's going to be a long
eight hours on that airplane.

[Colin] Oh, m*therf*cker.

[Colin]
When the plane's taking off,

all I'm doing in my head
is just praying.

It's about all you can do,
because your life is

in someone else's hands.

And that is my absolute
least favorite thing.

Like, this thing can literally
go down in the ocean,

and no one is gonna find us,
and you'll die.

Like, we're the Titanic
in the air, though.

Like, that's what I'm thinking.

-[rattling]
-[exhales]

♪♪ Rule Britannia,
Britannia, rule the waves ♪♪

-[Julie] Whoa, whoa, whoa.
-Press open, Bechnir!

[Julie] Keep pressing it.
Keep pressing it.

[Bechnir] Mom,
what do you think I'm doing?

Ladies and gentlemen,
welcome to the London hop-on,

hop-off bus tour.
Next stop, Piccadilly Circus.

Pick a d*ck, b*tch!

Bald b*tch.

There's a lot
of bald people in the UK.

They are everywhere.
They live amongst us.

-[Colin] "Spotted d*ck."
-d*ck!

-[Colin] Oh, really?
-There's a guy over there
in the corner laughing at me.

It's really hard to not pay
attention to the man staring

at me and laughing.

There's no quick shot to fix it,
but your mind

still takes you back
to this hope of the Neupulse.

As a parent, I'm just hoping
that this device gives her some

hope that there is something
better to look forward to

because she needs it.