17x07 - Zach Steps It Up

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We have an anorexic girl.

Like, I swear to God,

like, when she walked in the house

I though she was going to break in half.

Get out of the [bleep] damn car!

JANELLE: Paula definitely has some sort of issue with John.

I think John reminds her of someone

she used to date.

I really think the best thing at this point

that we can offer to you

is for you to seek out professional help for this.

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[phone ringing]

Hello.

Is Paula there?

Who's this?

It's Keith.

Keith? Okay, hold on.

Paula Walnuts, Keith is on the phone.

Keith is

an ex-boyfriend

that I dated on and off,

I'd say, three years.

The only thing that ever really makes me right

is getting to talk to you, you know?

Like, I freak out about that...

It's so weird.

I was on my way inside to call you.

It was just a very

intense relationship.

Very up and down, you know, expl*sive,

passionate-- good and bad.

I can deal with you having insecurities and worries

and things that bother you

forever-- for the rest of our lives--

but what I can't deal with

is you not being part of my life.

It was, like,

emotionally and physically a*usive

and I took it because when you're at that point,

it's like, you're, like, down so low,

you're, like, "I deserve it," or "I can fix it."

It's the only thing

that makes me right, though-- you.

You can do whatever you want, but if I don't hear from you,

you can be damn sure I'm going to call you.

He's a, he's a very tough, tough character.

Well, no, it's his fault.

He just [bleep] so bad that I'm [bleep]...

Like, cheated on you with your best friend?

Worse. Had sex with a guy?

No, different worse.

How'd he do that?

What Paula's saying is Keith

put her in the hospital because he physically hurt her.

The easiest way to say it is he lost control

and the only way that I could get it back

was I got him arrested.

Um, and I had a restraining order against him.

That's totally different.

That's totally different.

So you had him arrested. Good job.

I don't remember doing it,

I don't remember why,

I just remember being pissed.

And I'm... That's terrifying.

So me and him didn't speak at all,

but he gets in contact via a friend.

So he was just, like, "Um, can I talk to you?"

So, unfortunately,

I open up the doorway of communication

which I shouldn't because I'd probably be

at a much different place right now.

What would happen

if he was cheating on you?

I'd probably k*ll him.

No, he'd k*ll you.

That's, that's why I'm, like,

I cannot risk everything and be wrong.

I can't.

Like, I dont want to try to convince my family, my friends

that it's okay now because I'm not even % sure.

I always compared him to a volcano.

It may never erupt, but it could.

The biggest

misconception that all of us had

is that we were going to be able to help her.

JANELLE: I don't want to see her have to live her life

always constantly, you know, thinking about food

and her body image because she's such a sweet person.

[door opening]

She lived on her own.

She could have been a lot thinner, yes,

but I'm sorry, I don't buy that whatsoever.

By her telling us that she was getting better,

then make us go

"Okay, let's let her alone and she's going to get better."

This is a lie and a fallacy that she's telling herself.

We have completely dropped the ball

on dealing with

any potential eating disorders and her addiction to her pills.

PAULA: I feel they don't have the right to judge me

because they don't know the whole story.

I don't want to be the victim 'cause I'm trying to, like,

work it out, it's just hard.

ZACH: Like, I'm sitting here because

it's just so weird to me, like, okay, you got a problem.

You're skinny. So eat, dude.

You know what I mean?

Yeah. You can't tell somebody that.

That's what I'm saying.

Imagine this.

Do you think there's, like, some traumatic experience...?

The sheer truth of it,

the way that she told me, it's extremely deep.

I'm just saying, like, if you really want to help her,

you should get to know her; you really should,

'cause then you'd really understand

what she's going through.

Now, if you're going to talk to other people

and you're not going to talk to me...

I'm not talking to other people. I just talked to Svetlana.

She's the only one.

She hasn't talked to anybody else.

That's so awful.

You're going to go away for four months,

you're going to get these ideas in your head

and then you're going to come back and be, like,

"You know what? It's not going to work."

And that sucks.

Well, Fitz mentioned in the fact my entire worry this whole time

probably for the rest of my life would be, like,

"Well, what if he did it again?"

She goes, "What if he had two more drinks?

"What if he did this?

"What if he just got that much more angry?

"What if he has a drink one night

"and thinks you're cheating on him?

What if?"

And I had no [bleep] answer for her.

Nobody has an answer for...

I don't even have an answer for [bleep].

That's a [bleep] risk!

Yeah, it is a risk, babe. That's life.

A risk some people never have to deal with.

Why do I have to?

Because I [bleep] up!

I love him, but I hate myself for loving him.

I can't let go of what he did, and it makes me pissed.

I'm just

permanently, like, messed up and it's never going to go away.

I guess once and for all you kinda have

to decide what it is that you want to do.

Like, do you honestly think that I could be

what you need in your life?

What if I feel I don't know?

JOHN: We're going out to paint the town red tonight,

and I've been looking forward

to cutting loose for a couple of days now.

PAULA: I want there to be, like

okay, if Paula's obviously

bad in dealing with stuff,

that's why I fake being okay, because

that's the person everybody likes to be around.

I am Kahulani.

I want you to come dance with me.

PAULA: Kahulani is a five-foot-nothing

little Hawaiian girl.

She just comes up to me and starts dancing with me.

Oh, my God!

She's like a little pixie that runs around.

By the way...

I think... she's a l*sbian?

For you and me.

Ohh!

I feel comfortable with girls in bars 'cause they're nice.

They don't want anything from me.

This is my friend Zach.I'm Zach.

What's your name?

Come with us, though.

I'll go with you.

Please come with us.

Are you ready?

[howling]

[howling]

JOHN: Elena is a very attractive girl.

She has a slammin' body.

and she's looking to party, so

I invite her back to our house.

Ladies, outside, outside, outside.

ELENA: I'm a good girl.

I'm amazed.

I'm the greatest blabbermouth.

Right, because

I'm only here for one night,

so you're really a great guy-- for one night.

How do you know, how do you know

I'm not serving my grits until I'm ready?

Oh, you're such a liar.

Where did you guys go?

JANELLE: Fat Tuesday.

Of course they'd find [bleep]

like that at Fat Tuesday's.

Go, John.

TYLER: Go, John, go.

Bust a nut, man.

PAULA: You done with the phone?

Am I done with the phone?

Not if you're calling Keith I'm not.

I can use a phone.

I'm just using the phone.

The thing that makes me kind of bitter

when I know that I have to call Keith--

It feels as if I'm missing out on a lot

of the fun things that are happening in the house

You're giving this guy so much credit.

I'm not talking about it with anybody.

I understand.

No, nobody understands.

That's why I'm not gonna talk about it.

I don't understand beingyou,but

I understand it-- I've seen it countless times.

I've seen it in what you know,

I've seen it in a black eye

and I've seen it everywhere else.

There's just certain things that are not,

no matter what it is, they're not okay.

I separate

physical abuse from any type of abuse

or any type of relationship problems.

Somebody lays a hand on you, that is it.

You never talk to them ever again.

But it'ssomuch easier to say it than to do it.

Do you not put

hitting a woman on the same level as r*pe?

Give him that control-- that much control.

You're making it okay in your mind.

I don't have a Martin.

Nor did I.

I don't have anybody to go back home to.

You have your family that you can still go back to.

I don't live with my family.

I don't have anybody around me.

It's just me.

And you're using it as an excuse

to speak to this person

because he's the only one that's around,

and that's dangerous because he knows

that heisthe only one around.

Just, I really just have to have you feeling good.

I can't.

♪ It sucks to be a sidekick

♪ And just get kicked around

♪ I guess you never thanked me 'cause you never knew my name. ♪

I have to pee really bad. Okay.

Why aren't you having ... sex with this girl, John?

JOHN: I don't know.

So are you going to make it happen or what?

'Cause if not, I'm going to kick you

the [bleep] out and going to sleep.

I'm not like that. You got the wrong

[bleep] impression of me.

JOSE: I thought your game was tight.

And it's not [bleep].

Can we throw some board shorts on both of you

and a tank top on and just jump in the pool?

Let's go. Go get it.

JOSE: Being a good roommate,

I decided to take one for the team and kinda entertain

John's girl's friend.

What is it? Okay.

Go get her a pair of booty shorts.

She already has her stuff to go in the pool.

So, so make her jump...

She won't go in, dawg.

Yes, she will. I promise.

Get in the pool

Ooh. Wait a minute.

What's going on over here?

Here's the way I'm gonna do it.

JOSE:I know how you're gonna do it.

Here's the way I'm going to do it.

JOSE:I know you're not going to do it.

Yeah, I'm like, "I'll jump in if you jump in."

Not thinking she'd jump in because she was fully clothed

and did not have any bathing suit with her.

♪ But I have to say

♪ That I'm a believer...

Called your a*s up.

JOSE: She definitely proved me wrong

and jumped into the pool naked.

Wow, Jose.

JOHN: Tops come off, boobies come out.

There are all kinds of floatation devices

floating around the pool.

Okay.

Just jump in.

I'm just like, man, I don't want to go into this pool.

I'm not attracted to this girl at all.

Jose...

I played his a*s so much.

[bleep], b*tch, you don't know me from a hole in the wall.

Do you want me to come back?

Dude, I'd love for you to come back.

But when?

Like when? I mean, you know, two weeks from now,

a month, three months...

next year, five years from now...

Five years from now I'll meet you here.

Right here. Good.

ERIN:Hey.

I got to get up early tomorrow.

I don't mean to [bleep] block.Yeah, it's cool.

No, you're not [bleep] blocking. You're just being...

It's not like you were going to get anywhere anyway.

No, I wasn't.

Well, hello there.WOMAN: Hi, honey.

JOHN:We've got two girls for you to take home.

Well, how lucky were you.

JOHN: I've basically been kind of yearning

for the company of a female

for what seems like an eternity now since I've been here.

So it's just kind of nice to, um, have that.

Drive safely.

Have a good one.All right, good night.

Good night, John.

JOHN: They left at :, dude.

The sun was...

So you guys were just like tonguing it down the whole entire time?

You know, a little [bleep] here and there.

Did you get a [bleep]?

I got many, dude.

There was like... I mean, nothing to like, Whoo-hoo!

You remember making out with that chick?

I swear to God, dude.

But you did kiss a girl.

Okay, okay, that's what... okay, that's what...Paula...

PAULA: No one saw, no one saw that.

I find women attractive

and I don't think that makes me g*y to say so.

Women are beautiful.

JOHN: Paula just fess up, admit it.Paula...

I can't admit or not admit.

I can't [bleep] remember.

She seems to be into it. I was like, "Yeah, Paula!"

Hey, girl, give me some.

TYLER: Do you think she has it in her?

Yeah, to do what, be a l*sbian?

I thought she was a closeted bisexual chick from day one.

Really? Yeah.

I think Paula will take affection

wherever she can find it.

Do you think it's a little more than coincidence

that she always gets attention from the lesbians

or she'll drop hints when she's drunk.

She goes, "I love lesbians.

Lesbians always give me the most attention."

Girls I cannot tell.

Guys no problem.

That's not true. What?

I'm sure I could hire some buddies that would fool you.

KEITH: You promised you would call me last night

before you went to bed and you didn't.

This is the [bleep] I go through every night.

Like you have not been honest with me

about a lot of [bleep].

You've lied to me about a lot of things.

Like what?

That I have recently found out.

You know what you lied...No, I don't.

Jenn.What about her?

You lied.

Jenn was there for me when I really, really needed her to be.

It was soon after I went through

that whole thing with Keith.

You know, you know what I'm referring to.

Jenn-- she likes girls and guys, so whatever.

So, whatever, so I was drinking a lot

and I pull her into the bathroom

and I started making out with her.

She loves me. Like wants to be with me.

And now there's like feelings and stuff.

I can't deal with this,

and you're not helping with your behavior.

So if you want to take our relationship seriously,

you change, and you change real fast.

Okay, you can't speak to me... not like this.

Okay.You can talk to me normal.

Yeah, well, I can, and I'm sorry.

I'm a little bit fired up right now.

Yeah, well, fire down. 'Cause I hate it.

You're not putting yourself in my position from last night.

Last night broke me.

Like I had problems...Yeah, and you're not doing...

and you're only going worse into it.

Like I'm... I'm going to be like talking

to somebody down here, like some kind of therapist or something.

And you're like doing the complete opposite.

You're like finding all these vices and like getting worse.

What are you talking about,

you're going to be talking to some kind of therapist?

I'm like... I'm seeking counseling.

Not down there, babe.

Yes, I am starting it down here, yes.

Look, as a person, I'm all screwed up,

as a person, you're all screwed up.

How can that be good for another person?

I don't know.

I can't imagine spending the rest of my life

with somebody else.

Okay, no offense, but I can't have you be like this

and imagine spending my life with a person like that.

It's not... This isn't... you know this isn't who I am.

So stop being this way when I'm not around.

You need to be who you are all the time.

I can't be that strong all the time.

I'm human. I'm sorry, I'm only human.

PAULA: Have you ever, like, felt like somebody

really can't exist without you?

He's not normal.

Apparently not, but neither am I.

You will be. You'll get help.

No, that's what I'm... that's why I was telling him,

I was like, you need to get yourself there

before you and me can ever think about anything.

I care about him and it makes me nervous.

Don't you feel bad when you talk to him?

Don't you know that you're doing something wrong?

No.

Why would I...? Why would I feel bad?

If you married this guy he could k*ll you.

Stop saying that.

Drop it.

No, because you don't care about yourself.

Okay, but I do care about him.

Whether I should or not, I do.

I know what I should do,

but it's a complete conflict of what I want to do.

I know that he needs me in his life,

but he's also said, "All I want is for you to be happy."

And likewise, I would just want him to be happy.

I think that's what like love is.

I'm just done talking about it.

Nothing I will say

will ever make you realize what's going on.

And now I understand why this has gone on so long.

Because, every... you are impossible to get through.

You're impossible.

If Paula continues to do what she's doing,

I will have to... just not be close to her.

Because I can't stand to see what she's doing to herself.

PAULA: Svetlana wants me to just

be okay right now, and not need to call Keith--

not think about him, not do this or that.

But it's not that easy.

Damn it, I feel anger towards Svetlana,

because it's so easy to say it, it's so hard to change it.

♪ You won't find me

♪ And I won't let go.

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JOHN: Paula is not going to live through the morning, dude.

PAULA: John's mad 'cause I steal his girls.

This b*tch on here is a [bleep] l*sbian, dude.

Kiss my a*s!

Whatever's there is what you say.

At this point, there's really nothing that Paula can do

that can ever set things straight.

So then what happened after that? 'Cause I was...

JOHN: That was it. That was it.

We just [bleep] hung out.

You didn't have sex?No, man.

No, dude.

Oh, man.

What? Are you disappointed in me?

No, I'm not, but that's a lot of work.

Oh, man.

Wow, I didn't realize... I didn't realize

I was under so much [bleep] pressure, dude.

We all wanted you to do it.Why?

The whole house was on your side.Why, dude?

Because you... because we're all horny

and we've got nothing going on for us.

We have to live through somebody else.