17x10 - Gettin' Stormy

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Previously onThe Real World:

Where's the girl?She's coming.

Crystal works at Irish Kevin's.

She's really pretty.

I'm thinking that she is someone that I would like to talk to

and call again.

TYLER: We have an anorexic girl.

When she walked in the house,

I thought she was going to break in half.

I've always hated weight and issues with it.

As a person, I'm all screwed up.

Here, you don't have to be that person.

It's like starting a new semester in school.

Start off

clean slate.

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This is the true story...

Gorgeous, man.

Of seven strangers...[laughter]

Picked to live in a house...

Work together and have their lives taped...

Whoa!

To find out what happens...[ gasping]

When people stop being polite...

And start getting real.

ALL: The Real World: Key West.

John said, he's, like, "You deserve better.

He's, like, "You deserve to be happy.

What's wrong with that?"

Nothing.

And he's, like, "This is your chance.

"You don't have to be the Paula

"that you, that you were at home.

"And if you are

"her and you bring all those things here,

you're not learning."

That's when I was,

like, "You're right."

Oh, my God, John is right.

It almost woke me up.

to have it laid out so simply like,

"You don't have to not be okay."

He's, like, "You can be okay."

I'll never be given this opportunity

ever again.

I really do believe everything happens for a reason.

Like, I had to come here. I had

to meet you people.

Lord knows where I'd be if I didn't.

♪ I'm drifting and I cannot see what has come over me... ♪

[phone ringing]

Hello.

Hello. Is Paula there?

This is.

Hello, Paula. This is Dr. Covan.

Hi, how are you?

Good. Glad to hear from you.

Yeah, me, too.

Can you tell me a little bit what I can do for you?

Um, I actually am not really sure what you can do.

Um, I don't even know.

Like, I just... I need advice

or just clearing stuff up in my head kind of thing.

I should have gone to therapy, but I didn't.

I thought I could do it on my own,

but, obviously, as time has progressed, I need help.

All right, well, let's figure out when we can get together.

How about noon on Wednesday?

Okay.

Does that work for you?Yeah.

I'm really scared that I have to go and talk to a stranger.

Looking forward to meeting you.You, too.

Bye-bye.Bye.

Hopefully, he'll be able to give me some kind of guidance

and come to some understanding.

I know it's not going to happen in one day,

but at least the process has started.

ZACH: Being down here in Key West and just meeting the people

that I've met and having all the opportunities

I've had down here, Mm.

I'd never take it back

for anything in the world, you know?

'Cause it's so different than my life back home.

I've learned a lot about myself down here.

I've learned a lot about how I want

to be treated back home and kind of person I want to be.

I'm more of a people pleaser, you know.

I like other people to be happy.

If everybody's happy, then I'm happy.

That's how I am.

I feel the same way.

Crystal is really cool.

She's really fun, and every day she grows on me,

which says a lot about who she is.

And it excites me.

[laughs]

[laughing]

Want to stay?

I don't have my clothes.

What do you need clothes for?

You have... You're in your slumber party gear.

I know, but I'm not in my work gear.

I have to be at work at :.

[groans]

I can see so many positives of you staying, but...

Thanks for having me over, though.

I am not trying to get anything

more out of Crystal than a friendship

and fun and someone that

I could talk to and make out with and kiss.

Drive safely.

Thanks. I appreciate it.

Have a good night,sweetie.

Okay, darling. All right.

ZACH: What?

Did you make out with her?

Yes. On her butt?

On her butt!

Is she a good kisser?

Yeah, she's a really good kisser.

Are you guys going to get married?What?

Zach likes Crystal,

but he doesn't want to limit his availability

to other girls also.

Now you got her. Now you can't be an idiot.

Idiot jerk.

BOTH: Idiot jerk!

SVETLANA: You are such an idiot jerk.

In this house it is almost impossible

to do anything that involves

the opposite sex

because you just continue to get harped on

or made fun of or all this crap,

and you can't get away from it.

Immediately, Paula and her

are just, like, mean to me.

Paula's, like, Why you guys busting his ba*ls?

"Now you gotta marry her."

Paula's, like, "Are you going

to get married?"

Game over.

SVETLANA: You are so mad, you got no booty.

♪ Although this place is dead

♪ I am very much alive

♪ I'm a boy in my prime.

The worst person to hook up with is a local.

You have to hook up with girls

that are going to be gone by Monday morning. They're out.

The cool thing with Crystal,

she's awesome.

But I don't want to be tied.

The chick wants you in relationship mode,

like, ASAP, dude.

I don't want that.

I don't know if Zach knows

what he's getting himself into here.

I think Crystal is truly seeking out a relationship

and a boyfriend, and she's not getting that from Zach.

Why be in a relationship mode,

don't get any play?You're too good.

That's your problem, man.

You're, like, Dad, dude.

No, I'm not Dad.

Girls don't want to touch Dad.

Girls want to talk to Dad about their life,

but that's about it.

I'm Dad! I'm so Dad!

Sucks.

I'm going to get some play, dude.

♪ If you have the time, I'm a boy in my prime. ♪

[car horn honking]

You having a good day?Yeah.

ZACH: I see Crystal in Irish Kevin's.

She's telling me that she gets off

in a couple hours, so she's going to come over and hang out.

TYLER: Paula has a hard time expressing her emotions.

When she drinks she feels that she can be more

outflowing with her emotions.

Ah!

Oh, Paula.

Guys, I'm sorry, that's how it is. I can't.

ZACH: Watching Paula's behavior,

I am worried about her.

Her drinking is not helping her life.

PAULA: You're all being b*tch asses!

[Paula yelling]

Shh.

No yelling.

Let's get some food.

ZACH: This is the Paula that comes out

after a long night of drinking.

The fact that people don't cap markers

drives me insane.

Whatever.

Let's throw caps away.

What are the caps doing? Nothing!

[singsong voice]: Make me peanut butter. Make me peanut butter.

When Paula gets into this mode,

she's not Paula, she's Paula Walnuts.I know.

JOHN: It's kind of upsetting

that when Paula gets to a certain point in drinking,

you really can't look at her as the same person

or rationalize with her

in the same way

as you would when she's sober.

Put things...Paula, come over here, please.

All right, come over here. Hey, John.

You want something to drink? You want some water?No.

Aquafina?

MAN: Dude, what's going on?

PAULA: Nothing.

[little girl voice]: Get to go to my doctor tomorrow.

Are you nervous about that still?

Yeah.

Why, baby?

I just don't want him to say that I'm not fixable.

You're fixable, baby.

It's not that anything's broken neither.

It's just that you've got to work on a couple things,

that's all.

Supposed to be going to a doctor

who's basically going to be letting me know

that I'm crazy and there's a lot of things wrong,

and that he's going to tell me all these things to do,

how to fix them, and they're not going to work.

I'm real tired, so I'm going to take my pillows

and put them on the ground.

All right, baby.

What if he says I shouldn't call you?

I probably shouldn't call you right now.

Well, let him make that decision.[phone beeps]

Are you okay?

Don't. I got it. I don't want it to pull anymore.

Oh, cool.

Hello.

Maybe it's not okay.Oh.

I give up.Real quick, can I use the phone?

Did you break the phone?

I broke the phone.

ZACH: Why, Paula?

I didn't do it on purpose.

JOHN: She really broke the phone?

ZACH: Yeah, she knocked it over to the ground.

JOHN: Let me take over.

That's what it is, she ripped the cord.

Go get me a pair of scissors. I'll fix it.

ZACH: When it fell over,

it sliced the cord in half.

PAULA: Everybody else can die.

Can die?

Or be sad.

Which one, Paula?

JOHN: I'm about to show you why

they made me director of operations right now, dude.

Shut the [ bleep ] up.JANELLE: b*tch, you broke the phone.

ZACH:Paula, you're going to walnuts right now.

Really? Is that what walnuts look like?

Or is this what walnuts look like?

Really? JANELLE: Look at her.

Careful. Careful, babe. Careful.

[ bleep ] off!Paula!

♪ One, two, two, three, three, four days in a row. ♪

[ bleep ] you! Like you know anything!

♪ So, hi, hi, girlfriend, and there's nothing left to show. ♪

Kiss my a*s.

JOHN: There are certain red flags

with Paula that we've noticed.

One is "Kiss my a*s."

When she says that, it's bad news.

Kiss everybody's a*s. Nobody respects you anyway.

You say things, and everybody says, "That's an idiot.

And that's not really how it is."

Aw!

True story.Is that like my true Hollywood story?

No, your true Hollywood story

is like, "I have a little wiener."

And Crystal thinks you're boring

and so many other people.

And you're playing backstabbing games.

Wow.

Think that's her true feelings about me?No.

JOHN:That's her attempt to hurt people, dude.

ZACH: When Paula acts this way,

she is not just affecting her experience in Key West,

but she's affecting everyone else's.

Paula needs professional help.

♪ You'd better save yourself

♪ No help from no one else.

Pick up the phone.[dial tone]

Yeah?

Whoo! Good job.

[knock at door]

ZACH: I really adore Crystal, but I need to tell her

straight up how I feel.

It's hard to have that conversation where you say,

"Just in case you were considering me

"as a potential boyfriend

I just want to let you know this is how I feel."

I think Crystal knows where I'm coming from.

But the problem is, I don't think she wants to believe it.

♪ Just show me everything you've got ♪

♪ I know you're scared but let your walls just drop ♪

♪ You've got to take that step

♪ And your heart, just let it pour out. ♪

Did you guys have fun last night?I think so.

I think I broke the phone.

The more that I've been here,

the more out of control I've acted.

So I'm going to be leaving in like five minutes.

I'll be back.

I need to take the black car.

I'm going to try to go

fix myself and get help for the first time.

It's hard, though.

How about I drop you off?

ZACH: You can tell this house

gets hectic in the mornings.

You look takeoff mode.Are you?

I feel that as long as I'm honest to her

about my feelings, and I can communicate with her

exactly where I'm coming from...I'll see you again.

then I feel like I'm not holding back.

Drive safe.I will.

TYLER:Paula, do you want me to be lighthearted or serious

to get you in the mood for whatever?

I don't know. I'm scared.

You have nothing to be afraid of.

Just be open and honest.

Have you ever gone to a counselor before?No.

Psychologist?Shut up.

I do not know what to expect when I walk in the office.

I don't know how you start talking to a doctor.

I don't know how you start explaining

what the problems are.

♪ I want to turn around but go on instead ♪

♪ I'm hanging on by a thread

♪ It's the same...

PAULA: Anybody there?

♪ Blustering red

♪ Hanging on by a thread...

Hey, go get 'em, girl.

Thanks.

Just be open, be yourself.

♪ And I want to turn around but go on instead ♪

♪ I'm just hanging on by a thread. ♪

FRED COVAN: Welcome. PAULA: Thank you.

How do you feel?

Nervous.

Relax. [takes deep breath]

Take a deep breath. That's good.

So, what can I do to help you?

Uh...

I don't know

what you can do to help me.

If I could snap my fingers

and change something in your life,

to have it be different,

what would you like?

Um... I guess just be happy with myself.

All right, and what about yourself if you're not happy?

Um...

I don't think I can...

I don't know how to do this.

Well, first of all, if you cry this in tissues,

and that's okay, you look very sad

and very anxious.

Is that going on?

What made you

decide to call me?

I don't know. My roommates obviously

see something wrong.

Okay, what do you think your roommates see?

They see that... I get really... angry sometimes and...

Okay, so you have a temper.

Like...

They... see that I'm very emotional, um,

like, my weight...

What do you think about your weight?

I think it's fine.

Okay. Do you think you're fat?

No, not fat,

but I just think about it all the time.

Okay, how much do you weigh?

Like a hundred pounds.

A hundred pounds.

How tall are you?

Five-five.

Did you evertake any

laxatives to...

No, I take diet pills.

Diet pills. Do you know what's in it?

What the actual chemical in it is?

It's got ephedra.

Have you read anything about ephedra?

[ chuckles ]: What have you read?

That it's good for you and it's...No.

[laughs]

A lot of things aren't good for people and they still do it.

Exactly.

It makes me feel like I can't eat.

The ephedra makes you think that you can't eat?

How's that work?

Like it's a give and take.

If I stop taking them, then I'm not going to eat.

Just for the record,

it's a really dangerous drug,

and one of the problems is

that it makes people nervous,

and you're pretty nervous.

[muttering]

What is it about this you hate

talking about it and thinking about it?

[voice cracking]: I'm feeling like...

Let me explain what we're going to be doing.

We're going to be getting you to understand

your thoughts that make you feel bad,

and then teach you how to maybe question those thoughts.

I think that I can help you.

I think that you can get your life back

so that you can start to be happy.

Yeah, but I don't think it's going to happen.

If you think that, you might be right.

JOHN: You had a long little night there, buddy.

ZACH: You know.

JOHN: She woke up here,

so I'm assuming that you guys just didn't go upstairs.

I'm like, "All right. Hi, darling, see you in the morning.

JOSE: Were you making out last night?

Yes. Did you or her

touch any part of the other person's body below the waist?

Yes.♪ Oh, yeah...

Was this part of the body also above the knees?

[laughs] Yeah! So?

ZACH: Basically what I think now and then I said,

regardless whatever's gonna happen later on,

let's not worry about that, and let's just enjoy the moment.

And if in the moment, we want to be together

and have fun and all that, let's do it.

Zach has told Crystal that

he doesn't want anything serious.

However, I think his actions are going to start

contradicting what he says, and as we all know,

actions definitely speak louder than words.

You didn't bang her, did you?

No, you didn't.

Shut up!

Shut up. No, you didn't, Zach.

Zach, are you kidding?Holy... No.

ZACH: I like Crystal. I respect Crystal.

Whatever we did and whatever we're going to do physically

is a reflection of our relationship with each other,

not a reflection of being a -year-old horny guy.

Wow, Zach, that's great. Wow.

JOSE: Dude, that's my boy.

[seagulls crying]

COVAN: I think you can be happy.

You have to start to believe that

that's a possibililty.

I want to give you

a book to read. It's your homework.

It's called Feeling Good.

I want you to really work this book.

It's not a fun read. It's a self-help book.

It's probably thebest book

for working on depression.

Will you do that?

Will you work it? Okay, good.

We have a lot of work to do, but we can do it.

You on board? All right.

We're done for now.

Next week, same time.

PAULA: Dr. Covan doesn't make me feel crazy or bad.

He almost makes it something that's so normal to feel bad,

and that it's still possible to feel better.

PAULA: It's different than I thought it would be.

I thought he would be able to, like,

fix my problems.

He's just trying

to help me understand

the way I think.

That's good.

You feel like he has a lot of good advice.

Yeah. He was saying, "You're really depressed."

And I didn't even think that I was depressed.

It's like depression doesn't mean

like sad all the time, doesn't want to do anything.

It just seems like

everything is so overwhelming.

I'm glad he's blunt with you.

ZACH: She's starting the process.

It's a long and difficult road,

but as long as she's willing

and as long as she feels like she has support,

which she does here,

then nothing's stopping her.

What about diet pills?

Oh, yeah.

He's like, "I think you put so much

"emphasis and focus on what you eat

"to distract yourself from other things,

so it's a way of like kind of gaining control on something."

He's right. I over, over-think things

and I over-worry about things

and I'm an anxious person.

I think he just wants me to relax more

and put all this pent-up anxiety into other things.

I had hit rock bottom.

I can only go up.

♪

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ANNOUNCER: Next onThe Real World:

Do you think heterosexuality's nature versus nurture?

I don't think people are just born

not having a sexual preference.

He reminds me of this good hunk of beef.

Sometimes that's what you need.

I kind of always thought that

I would be able to tell if somebody was g*y.

When I saw that kid,

it made me think that

every male I know and I like is guy.

Martin could be g*y.

Like, give me the best accent.

North Carolina's. Yeah.

Talk about trucks and farm animals and stuff.

Trucks and farm animals?

I don't know, why don't you just talk about North Carolina.

Not trucks and farm animals.

I want to hear your best, your best Carolina.

Um...

You have to give me a snippet.Okay, okay, okay.

"Put some more shrimp on the barbie."

[laughs]: No.

"Mom, Pa, it's cold outside.

Bring in the chickens."

Oh, don't...

[bad accent]: "Mom, Pa, bring in the chickens."

[laughs]

Get out.

You're not from North Carolina.