04x16 - Natsuki Subaru

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Why...

It's a book of the dead...

Mine... no, Subaru Natsuki's.

Wait, would a book of the dead record
all the times that I've died?

So what do you actually
want to do, you coward?!

Do you want to look at this thing or not?!

"Subaru Natsuki," you...

What's going on?

Ow, that burns...

Oh, crap... Is all of this my blood?

This is bad... Very bad...

Subaru? What's wrong?

Subaru?

No... Run! Hurry!

Wait there...

I'm...

going to...

save you...

It's... gone?

It's gone... It's gone...

There's no wound.

A memory of dying with
my belly sliced open...

No doubt about it now.

This is Subaru Natsuki's book of the dead.

But it starts when I
first came to this world?

Meili's started with
her very first memory...

No, the real question is what comes next.

I know you used Return by Death, too.

Didn't you, Subaru Natsuki?

There's another one...

Are you surprised?

I opened up your belly when
we passed by one another.

This is the one thing I excel at.

As I thought...

Your guts have such a lovely color!

It hurts... It hurts...
It hurts... It hurts...

- It hurts... It hurts...

- Does it hurt? Are you suffering?

- It... doesn't hurt?

- In pain? Sad? Do you want to die?

Die?

Am I dead? Am I still alive?
When will I die? When will I die?

- Slowly, slowly, slowly, slowly...

- I'm scared... I'm scared...

- I'm scared! I'm scared! I'm scared!

- I'm gonna die! I'm gonna die!
I'm gonna die!

Yes, you're slowly losing body heat...

You're slowly growing cold...

Oh... I'm dead.

I knew it.

You used it, too.

A third one...

You've gotta be kidding me...

It hurts... It hurts...

Huh?

But Old Man Rom ate those...

How?

Could... this be...

Well, boy? You want this appa?

Hey, mister...

Huh?

How many times have you seen me now?

What do you mean? I've never
seen you before now.

Well? You want the appa or not?

Sorry, but I'm broke beyond compare!

Get the hell outta here!

As a knight, I will have to fight back.

Live strong.

That's how a Bowel Hunter fights.

The swordplay of the Astrea family.

My name is Emilia.

My, what a deadbeat thing to say.

Did you hear that, Sister?

Yes, truly the words of a
loser. I heard him, Rem.

My sister is too kind.

But you don't know, either, do you?!

Know what?

That I love you guys!

Wait!

This is something only I can do!

I'm going to save you!

Why... Why are you such
an idiot, Subaru Natsuki?

You can't even do anything...

This... makes eight.

All of it, all of it, all of it!

All of it was because I was there!

You're too late.

Where... Where is it?

What... What the hell is this?

There has to be something.

Something that shows the difference
between me and "Subaru Natsuki"!

Sleep...

Along with my daughter.

Emilia is my entire reason for existing.

There's no reason for me to
exist in a world without her.

It was my lack of virtue that forced this
undesirable decision on you and Ferris.

I'll have to fight Petelgeuse again.

But I don't care.

I'll fight him
as many times as it takes...

beat him as many times as it takes...

to save both Emilia and Rem.

Perhaps you would know me
better as the Witch of Greed?

Give it your all!

I'm expecting the best from you, son.

Take care.

You promised, didn't you?

That you'd take good care of
your bowels until we met again.

Dad... Mom...

Tell me, Subaru Natsuki...

Why are you special?

Why are you the only one
who gets to be special?

There must... There must be some reason!

I... swear...

I'm going... to save you.

Because if there's not, then I
have no choice but to accept...

...you can become like me.

...that you're just as weak,
puny, and powerless as me.

Choose me, Beatrice.

Just keep holding my hand and
don't leave me alone, I suppose.

Thank you! I'm so sorry!

I am the Sin Archbishop in the
Witch Cult representing Wrath...

- Sirius Romaneeconti.

- I want as many as possible, for as long
as possible, as deeply as possible...

- Who do you think I am?!

- to love me!

- I am the Sin Archbishop in the
Witch Cult representing Greed,

Regulus Corneus!

Julius, are you...

a friend of Subaru's?

Echidna.

Subaru! Subaru!

I'm begging you, Subaru Natsuki...

Please be some kind of superman!

Convince me that that's why you could
do all the things that I can't!

Still...

You get it, don't you, Subaru Natsuki?!

Yeah, I get it.

I get it, Subaru Natsuki.

You're me, after all.

Let's start over.

Heya, brother.

Actually, I guess "brother"
might be misleading.

I should be more specific.

Heya, other me.

Subaru... Natsuki?

Why are you here?!

And what is this place, anyway?!

Why am I here?!

It proves that you've caught up to me.

I... caught up to you?

Yep.

You caught up to me by reading
my books of the dead.

All the things you didn't know,
you just saw vicariously.

You know my alternate-world life now.

Stop screwing with me!

I still don't know the most
important thing of all!

Tell me why you became you!

I didn't see that part!
I haven't found it!

That's what you just saw, isn't it?

Stop looking at me like that!

Is this power really that great?!

It only makes me start over when I die!

If the guy using it is sh*t, the
result's gonna be sh*t, too!

That's why I couldn't save
anyone! I let them all die!

I couldn't save anyone, no matter how
many times I restarted, because I'm weak!

So why...

Because you love them all.

You love them all. That's
why you can't stop.

I get how much all this stuff
you're going through sucks.

I've felt the same pain so many times.

I never should've looked at your memories.

I wish I could say you're wrong
and make some dignified comeback,

I just...

wanted to find some hope in you.

I wanted to think you were amazing,

and that if I could find out what
it is that makes you amazing,

I could do the things you did!

So why...

Why aren't you some kind of superman?!

Why are you still just a dumb kid?!

Don't put yourself down like that.

I guess that's a tough ask, huh?

You're me, after all.

"Subaru Natsuki" is a weak, puny
dumbass with no saving graces.

You got that right.

But...

you are amazing, Subaru Natsuki.

The stranger who's closest to you, huh?

You're weak, you're hopeless, and you
can't do anything, but you still fight.

You love all of them. And for that...

I respect you.

Aw, man, you're just embarrassing me now.

I'm in no place to talk,

but I don't know how you can say that
after seeing who I was up until now.

You basically watched "Subaru Natsuki
Starting Life in Another World from Zero."

Yeah. It's weird seeing a protagonist
with the same name as me.

Better than when the heroine
has the same name as your mom!

So why are you here, exactly?

Were you... waiting for me?

This place is the only connection
that exists between you and me.

Connection... between you and me?

In this tower, the only place
where I, the one with memories,

can make contact with you,
the one without them,

is within the book of the dead that
recounts the time my memories were eaten.

Hey, other me...

What do you think happens when two
people's memories are combined?

What if we crash into each other,
like a particle and an antiparticle,

and annihilate each other?

Don't say that.

You know whatever bothers
you is gonna bother me, too.

Yeah, I guess so.

Then should I just say, "No hard
feelings, no matter who wins"?

No, I'd definitely have hard feelings!

And if I have hard feelings,
that means you do, too!

There are a few things I want to say.
Can I?

We've come this far.
Say whatever you want.

Okay, here's what I've experienced
since you lost your memories.

Call it an unknown chapter of

"Subaru Natsuki Starting Life
in Another World from Zero."

First, there's Meili.

She's basically a whole field of
landmines, so it's been rough,

but you'll understand her once you talk
to her, so make sure you do.

Meili's kind of a rising
star for me right now.

Okay, got it.

Also, there's a giant scorpion
roaming around the tower.

That's actually Shaula.

But she's not doing it
because she wants to.

Help her out.

Okay, got it.

Oh, and when I met Rui, Rem
gave me a kick in the a*s.

I didn't remember her at
the time, but I know now.

That was my Rem.

No, she's my Rem!

No, mine!

I said she's mine!

Ram did say that the things
you can't see now

finally show themselves
when the snow melts.

Guess she nailed it.

Yeah, she sure did.

And as for Julius...

Well, I probably don't need
to tell you about him.

He's not so pathetic that he needs
you or me to say anything to him.

Agreed.

Thanks for apologizing to Mom and Dad.

Oh... Yeah.

Thanks for saving Otto and Garfiel.

Sure.

Thanks for saving Petra and Frederica...

and all the people of Arlam Village.

Yeah.

You got Beatrice outside, too...

You took her hand.

Thank you.

And Emilia...

Thank you for falling in love with Emilia.

I love her, too. So much.

Yeah. I know.

Subaru Natsuki.

You are an amazing guy.

I know that for a fact.

I know you're gonna be just fine.

Yeah.

Yeah. You're right.

Yeah!

You and I are gonna be fine!

We're gonna be fine, huh?

You're right. We're gonna be fine.

I know that because I
know how amazing you are.

Oh, but...

I won't tell you to do your best.
That thought pisses me off too much.

You're walking a pretty damn
fine line yourself right now.

Well?

Did you see what you wanted to see,

Rui Arneb?

What the hell are you doing?!

N-No...

No!

Huh?! Wha—

You're gonna regret this.

Time to eat!

No! We don't want to die!

We don't want to die!

No! No! No! No!

There's no way... There's
no way we can endure that!

That pain... That loss...

We can't! We can't!
We can't! There's no way!

No!

No human can endure that!

You're a monster! A monster!

- This is why I told you you'd regret it.

- A human's heart could never
withstand their own death!

We don't want to die! We don't
want to die! We don't want to die!

Hey!

You lose, Rui Arneb.

Just admit that and set them all free.

Set all the people you've eaten free!

No way!

That's our lifeline, you know!

If we lose that,
you'll be able to k*ll us!

We can't give them back if
we don't want to be k*lled!

We can't!

I...

won't save you.

And I don't feel sorry for you.

No...

No more!

Just go away!

I'll just let one of my brothers
be the one to eat you!

We're done!

Remember this, Rui Arneb!

All the things you don't like, all
the pain—you carry it yourself!

Don't run from your memories!

Hey. This isn't how it was
supposed to go, is it?

You're... us...

That's right. It's us.

Did you get him—the perfect environment
for playing with life—ready for us?

You saw it, didn't you?

You heard it, didn't you?
You smelled it, didn't you?

You felt it, didn't you?
You tasted it, didn't you?

Subaru Natsuki's authority!

Don't say its name!

What? Didn't the plan work out?

The plan was to go into him
once he was empty

and do all kinds of mean things, right?

No... No...

No!

Wait... are you planning to
keep his authority to yourself?

You're going to monopolize the
one way for us to be happy?!

No! No, no, no! It's not like that!

I won't stand for that!

Subaru Natsuki belongs to us!

I don't know what you're talking about!

We're the only ones
who know Subaru Natsuki!

You homewrecker!

You stupid woman!

- You dirty monopolizer!

- You don't know anything!

If you don't want it, then
let us taste it, too!

We don't want to die!

Icicle Line!

Sorry, Sister. We've grown bored of that.

Do you think you'll win if you
just do that a hundred times?

Even a thousand times wouldn't be enough.

Then I'll do it ten thousand times.

Wait there. It's too dangerous.

Let me handle this.

I mean, um... You might
not know who I am, but...

It's all good, Emilia-tan!

My name is Subaru Natsuki!

- Subaru Natsuki

- I'm Emilia-tan's number one knight!