01x02 - Episode 2

[bunniefuu]

[tense pensive music playing]

[İlker] A one-night stand.

[Funda] That's it? Just a one-night stand?

[İlker] That's it.

[exhilarating music playing]

[panting]

[moaning]

-[electronic music playing]
-[people chattering]

[muffled moaning]

[chuckles]

[moaning continues]

[gasps, pants]

[breathes deeply]

NOT A STRANGER

[music fades]

MILK

[intriguing music playing]



[music intensifies]

[Funda] Back then,
the hardest part was starting.

Anyway, that's what I told myself.

I would shut the door,
leave my past behind it, and start anew.

And with a sense of adventure
slowly simmering inside of me,

I'd feel a lightness, a buoyancy.

We waste so much time
asking the wrong questions.

[intriguing music continues]

[Funda] My happiness
was supposed to be unique.

But happiness also has a dark side.

[music subsides]

[exhales]

[dishes clattering]

[uneasy music playing]

What are you doing here, Nazlı?

Hmm?

I work for you.

That's what you wanna do?

Um, but what about the swim therapy
or the hospital?

That's done.

I'm trying to make a fresh start.

But why? Why here? You can't live here.

I thought you guys decided that I could.

We did, but…

[sighs]

I'm not sure anymore.

I'm uncomfortable.

Look, this… this is my home.

I mean, I live here with my family.

I'm married.

Of course you are.

This nonsense ends now.

I'll take care of it, okay?

I can find you another job.
I can talk to some colleagues.

You don't have to take care of anything.
I'll do it myself.

As soon as I find another job,

you won't have to see me
around here anymore.

[uneasy music continues]

[İlker] So have you decided on a topic
for your exhibition?

[Funda] Not yet.

I don't feel anything.
I'm completely empty.

Come on, don't say that.

First thing you should do is
go outside and take a walk.

Get some fresh air.

All your great ideas came to you walking.

That was years ago.

Okay, fine. You don't have to go walking.

Whatever makes you happy.

That's what's important.

-[phone ringing]
-[sighs]

Oh. Ezgi from the gallery.

Mm-hmm.

Hello, Ezgi.

Maybe we should postpone this interview
to another day and reschedule?

I just don't think it's a good idea
to say anything about the exhibition

before I even know the subject.

[Funda] There are stories
we tell ourselves about our lives.

Then there comes a shining moment
when you feel like

the stories need to change.

You let them go

and tell new ones.

I think that's what
he was going through as well.

A sinister, nagging doubt,
simmering silently,

in the back of his mind.

Where is the person I used to be?

How much have I changed?

Mm. [chuckles]

Mm.

Don't mess it up.

No, don't.

Don't worry about it.

You're messing it up. Be careful.

[both chuckle]

This is really good.

From now on, my manicure,
pedicure, nail polish…

You do it all.

You're hired. Hear that?

-[İlker] Sure.
-[gasps]

[gasps]

[Nazlı] You're not listening to me,
are you?

[Nazlı laughs]

[Nazlı pants]

[panting]

[pants]

[laughs]

[panting]

[sighs]

[inhales]

[exhales]

[music fades]

If Mavi cries or gets upset, just call me.

[Nazlı] I will.

-We're out of her yogurt.
-Uh, I know.

There's a little left in that jar,
and I washed the rest by hand.

Great.

I'll make more
before going to bed tonight.

I already made a new batch.
It's there, in the cupboard.

That was kind.

But I'll make Mavi's yogurt.

You just let me know
when we run out again.

It's no trouble at all.
I can take care of it.

I didn't say it was trouble.

I just said I'd rather do it.

[dramatic ethereal music playing]

[music intensifies]

[Mavi cooing]

[gasps] Is that little duck your favorite?

Yes, yes, it is. You're right. [gasps]

Mavi, have you seen
my headband anywhere, little girl?

[exhales]

CAN I SEE THE BIKE TODAY?
SORRY, I'M BUSY.

I SAID I WAS BUSY,
BUT MY MEETING GOT POSTPONED.

IF YOU CAN COME RIGHT AWAY
I CAN SHOW YOU THE BIKE

[music fades]

[car horn honks]

[man] I'm liking this.

There's something beautiful
happening here. Hmm?

[door closes]

[chuckles] Is it not good?

[sighs] It looks horrible.

Don't exaggerate.

You artists love
to overanalyze your own art.

Prime the canvas and start over.

Pentimento. Do we all remember
what that means?

Italian for "regret" or "change of mind."

Sometimes an artist will re-prime
an entire or a part of a canvas

and start over.

They create a brand-new piece
over the old work.

This is not a flaw.

Your regrets are
what make you who you are.

An indispensable part of being an artist.

Does that mean girls putting on makeup
every day is pentimento, as well?

Your sexist questions
are starting to piss me off.

-[laughter]
-I'm not answering that.

But everyone, we have
a famous artist among us.

Maybe you can ask her.
My former assistant.

She's our special guest today.

-Funda İnal.
-[applause]

-[woman 1] Welcome.
-[woman 2] Welcome.

[woman 3] It's an honor.

[man] I always wondered
what kind of mother you'd turn out to be.

Ask Mavi in a few years,
and she'll tell you.

[chuckles]

Honestly, I wish you'd been my mother.

[poignant piano music playing]

[scoffs]

Are you still mad?

You left me heartbroken.

But I knew it couldn't last.

I was even aware of that
in our happiest times.

But that's how life works.

[phone ringing]

I'm so sorry.

[sighs] Say hello for me.

-Hello.
-[İlker] Where are you?

At school.

How's Kemal doing?

-Good.
-Uh, great.

How was class?

[Funda] It was okay,
but I might have to stay longer.

I'm worried about Mavi though.

Don't be.

I was just about to say
that I'm going home.

You know that guy
who wanted to see my bike?

Well, he insists on seeing it now,
so I'm heading home.

Okay, that'll put my mind at ease.

Good. Don't worry. I love ya.

Uh-huh, you too.

[poignant piano music continues]

You saw how confident I was in the class?

It was all a facade.

Mm, who the hell did I think I was,
doing an exhibition

when I don't even know
if I can paint anymore?

You just will. It's a done deal.

If I know that look,
you've made up your mind already.

Listen, all you have to do is

find your voice and express it.

[motorcycle engine revving]

[music fades]

Performance and comfort were
my priorities, and it never let me down.

Did you do a lot of long rides?

I used to, but… [sighs]

If you're going on longer rides,
you'll need a few accessories.

Panniers, headlight guards,
new windshield, and all that.

Yeah, yeah. I'll need it.
We're starting in the Black Sea.

[İlker] Really?

[intriguing music playing]

The Thrace route
is a little bit challenging,

but Uçmakdere,
the Ganos Mountains, are beautiful.

-We should go for a ride sometime.
-Mm. Thank you, but…

I mean, those days are long gone.

Your wife won't let you, is that it?

Oh, she isn't--

It's all right.
Women don't like that sh*t.

[chuckles] It's not that.
I just don't need the lifestyle anymore.

Oh, but danger is the best part.

[laughs]

Yeah, but I'm older now.

When you become a father…
I suppose your life changes.

[mysterious music playing]

[sighs]

You're selling your motorbike?

Yeah.

Why?

-Is that a trick question?
-You love it, that's all.

Forget it.

[exhales]

Life's funny like that.
Things are always changing.

If you'll excuse me,
I'd like to take a shower

while Mavi is asleep.

[mysterious music continues]

[tablet clatters]

[mysterious music intensifies]

[music intensifies]

[computer chimes]

[Nazlı] Are you recording this?

-[İlker] Can I?
-[Nazlı] Yes.

[Nazlı] Take a picture.

[İlker] Wow, you look amazing.

[motorcycle engine revving]

[mysterious music continues]

[phone beeps]

[Funda] İlker, Nazlı left some stuff
in her old place.

We're going to pick it up.

It's Ceren's birthday tonight,
so don't forget, okay?

[phone beeps]

[mysterious music continues]

-Are we turning here or…
-Yeah, you can take a left right up there.

[music fades]

["Kusura Bakma" by Blok3 playing]

[Nazlı] Uh, we can stop. This is it.

-You sure?
-Uh-huh.

-Is here good?
-Thank you. I won't be long.

[car doors lock]

["Kusura Bakma" continues]

[phone chimes]

I'm stuck here at the office. So sorry.

You should, um, buy a present
and go without me.

Please send my apologies.

I hate to send you on your own,

but something came up here
that needs my attention.

Nazlı! Can you just listen to me
for two f*cking minutes?

Emre, can you please lower your voice?

[Emre] You don't answer my calls,
my texts.

-[Nazlı] I have to go now. Sorry.
-What the hell is going on?

Nazlı. What the f*ck?

[car doors unlock]

[music volume increases]

Hey, I'm back.

[music fades]

[Funda] Who was that guy? Your roommate?

No, he's my boyfriend, Emre.

Did you guys fight?

Oh, no, no.

We just had a misunderstanding.

That's what we do.
We sometimes take things too seriously.

How long have you been together?

It's been, uh,

over a year now.

[lively Turkish music playing]

[cheering]

[indistinct chattering]

[Ceren] Oh, Funda's here. Funda.

-[Funda] Hi, sweetie.
-[Ceren] You made it.

[Funda] A small gift for you.

Thank you so much.

You look gorgeous.

Kemal. Hi, everyone. Sorry I'm late.

Hello, all. [sighs]

-[woman 1] My birthday is in June.
-[Kemal] You look incredible.

How long has that been going on?

[woman 2] Well, it must be very new.

Interesting.

How?

Because now they're not hiding it.

I don't really get it,
but it's the only thing she talks about.

-[toy chimes]
-Ah-ah.

[automated voice]
Now it's time to learn the color blue!

-[door opens]
-Blue.

-[uneasy ethereal music playing]
-[toy bell rings]

Hmm?

[İlker] Hello.

Welcome home.

-[Mavi babbles]
-Mavi.

-Mavi. Hey.
-[babbling]

Come here.

Come on. Daddy's here. Daddy's here.

Huh, pup.

Did you miss Daddy?

[exhales]

Daddy has a lot of work to do.

He'll be working from home.

Can you take her? I need to wash my hands.

Mm-hmm.

[Mavi babbles]

[whines]

-[Nazlı] You're okay, sweetheart.
-[Mavi whines]

-[kisses]
-[babbles]

[all cheering]

[cheering continues]

[woman 1] Happy birthday!

[mysterious music playing]

ARE YOU STILL AT THE OFFICE?
IS EVERYTHING OKAY?

[phone chimes]

ALL IS FINE. I FELT COOPED UP
AT THE OFFICE. I'LL WORK FROM HOME.

ARE YOU HOME? WHAT A SHAME
ANYWAY, I WON'T KEEP YOU, LOVE YOU.

[message sent tone]

I've got something for you.

[music fades]

What?

Funda from 15 years ago
wants to say hello.

Listen to this.

"Professor, my name is Funda,

a new student enrolled

in your university's
architecture department."

Come on, I was young and stupid.

-Ah.
-Don't do this to me.

You need to hear this.

"This is the wrong place for me."

"My soul belongs in the arts."

"I know you usually don't accept students
from other departments,

but I have a burning desire to paint."

"Would you please let me change my major
to prove it to you?"

If you're still looking for advice,

just take it from yourself.

[poignant music playing]

This is for real.

[Funda sighs]

That girl from 15 years ago was a warrior,

a survivor, and that's still you.

I miss you, Funda.

[sighs]

Not a day goes by
that I don't think of you.

[waiter] Excuse me, sir,
would you like some ice?

Sure, I'll take some.

I'm going to the restroom.

[music fades]

Mavi's asleep in her room.

Um, I'm gonna be outside
for a few minutes.

I have a friend coming.

[mysterious music playing]

No problem.

[motorcycle approaching]

[music intensifies]

[Nazlı laughs]

I got a phone call from Ezgi.

Bailing on an important interview
can sink you, girl.

Mm. I'm not sure.

[scoffs mockingly]

Are you really throwing in the towel?

Maybe it doesn't speak to me anymore.

[scoffs]

Your world is so small.

You just keep it in your little pocket.

And when your world goes wrong,
mm, you blame it for not being big.

You need to be in control
of every single thing

in every circumstance. Always.

You want the same opportunities
as everyone else,

but I mean, everyone is k*lling
to get an interview,

but when you get asked, you just say, "Mm,

I can't. "

[chuckles]

Why do you think that's so wrong?

It comes across as entitlement.

Look, for example,
I also wanna be a mother, right?

I say, "I wanna be a mother.
I want to be a mother,"

over and over again!

But it doesn't make it happen, does it?

So what do I do?

Do I say, okay, I accept the situation?

Do I just wish for something else
that won't come true?

Or is this important? Because if it is,
the rest of the time is boring anyway.

And if I can make peace with that,
then you f*cking can too.

Wake up, my friend. You want it all?

You can't.

You're not special, so stop it.

Stop trying to control everything
and everyone in your life.

[melancholy music playing]

[inhales]

[exhales]

[exhales]

[groans]

Oh God.

[sighs]

Are you mad now?

Why would I be?
You were just telling the truth.

[tuts]

That's not what I meant.

Talking about Kemal.

[sniffles]

I'm not mad.

It's not like you have the right
to be angry.

[laughs] Damn.

[breathes deeply]

So why aren't you?

I'm happy for both of you, Ceren.

[Ceren retches, coughs]

-[Funda] Okay, okay, okay. Let it out.
-[retching continues]

-Go ahead, let it out.
-[Ceren groans]

I wish I could give you a tissue.

-You all right?
-I'll be okay. [sniffles]

Well, at least you got it out
of your system.

-You'll feel better now.
-[groans]

Your… clothes.

Is that, uh, milk?

You need to go or…

[groans]

[intriguing pensive music playing]

[Nazlı] Whoo!

[music intensifies]

[music subsides]

[water running]

[music fades]

[uneasy music playing]

[steam hisses]

[phone line ringing]

[automated voice] The person you called
cannot be reached at the…

[uneasy music continues]

[music intensifies]

[music swells]

[music subsides]

[steam hisses]

Oh, Mrs. Funda.

Sorry, I didn't hear you come in.

Welcome back.

[music fades]

You don't have to do laundry at this hour.

Mavi's laundry was piling up.
I thought I'd take care of it.

Uh-huh.

Where's İlker?
I called, but he's not answering.

I think I may have heard him go out.

[pensive music playing]

Okay, thanks.

[motorcycle engine idling]

[phone chimes]

I WAS ON THE BIKE.
WENT OUT TO GET SOME FRESH AIR.

[music fades]

[cap clatters]

You said that the healing power of plants
was your passion,

and that's why you chose to be a nurse.

What?

While you were cleaning the jars.

You said it was your passion,
and that's why you chose nursing.

Correct.

So if that was your passion,
why give it up so easily?

Sometimes the things we love
don't love us.

Your choices follow you,
even if you leave them.

[water pouring]

[sighs]

You remember I told you
I had an accident, right?

Mm-hmm.

After that incident,
I had to give up nursing forever.

[water pouring]

How does it feel
knowing you will never be a mother?

[dramatic melancholy music playing]

I'm so sorry.

Come with me.

[intriguing music playing]

[man] So, looking back now,

do you regret
that she was the one you chose,

and not somebody else?

Isn't regret a part of the story too?

[Funda] Maybe it's
the most important part.

I finally have an idea for the exhibition.

-Mm.
-It's gonna be great.

I've already started the first painting.

Nazlı's going to model for me.

-Who came up with that idea?
-I did, I think.

It just happened.

There's something strange about that girl.
It's inspirational.

-[Funda sighs]
-[lighter clicks]

You took your bike out?

[İlker] Yeah, I went for a ride.

How was that?

I changed my mind about selling it.

Really?

[dramatic sensual music playing]

Because it turns me on.

[chuckles] What are you doing?

[İlker] Sh.

-Enjoy it.
-Mm.

[music intensifies]

[Funda, İlker panting]

[moaning]

It's centered around women
in different states of womanhood.

Giving birth, being a mother,
deciding not to

because not every woman is capable
in the moment,

even if they would like to.

Um, when you look at motherhood
through a contemporary lens,

how do women's stories evolve?

How do they stay in control? Or not?

[echoes] And, of course,
this work will be addressing that too…

[dramatic music playing]

[steam hisses]

Any news from that other job?

Uh, no.

Make sure it doesn't take too long.

But you said you would take charge.

Find me a job, then.

Okay, I will.

If that's what you want.
I'll be in charge.

Good.

All right. I'll handle it.

I'll make a few quick calls
tomorrow at work, for sure.

Okay.

[Funda] Maybe I was being selfish
and actually wanted her for myself.

I was curious.

I wanted to look at her.

To study her.

[inaudible]

[Funda] But no matter
how carefully you look,

you still can't see the whole picture.

There are always blind spots.

Things that can't be controlled.

[Nazlı] Why are you here?

Do you remember
when you asked me why I was here?

Huh? Why are you?

Wasn't it London
you were supposed to move to?

Wasn't that the reason we broke up?

[Funda] Maybe people think their desires
can be satisfied.

But they never will.

Are you recording this?

-[İlker] I am.
-Huh?

-Take a photo.
-[İlker] Wow, you look f*cking amazing.

Have you ever thought about modeling?

[laughs] Modeling, huh?

[İlker] Okay, now give me
your sexiest pose. The most daring.

Yeah.

-Do you like what you see? [laughs]
-[İlker] Very much.

-[camera shutter clicks]
-Come here.

[İlker laughs]

Get over here.

[laughs]

[laughs]

[music intensifies]

[Nazlı] Take me.

Here?

And everything you've been repressing
is gonna resurface sooner or later.

[music intensifies]

[music swells]

[cloth scrubs vigorously]

[glass shatters]

[scrubbing continues]

[music swells]

[music fades]

[dramatic suspenseful music playing]

[music fades]