01x04 - nada

[bunniefuu]

Why did you want a relationship
if you were going to cheat?

- I love you. I swear!
- I never want to see you again.

[Bia's mother] And
how's work, honey?

- Is it enough to make ends meet?
- Yeah.

[Bia] I'm going on
lots of auditions.

They say I'm a perfect fit.

Don't you believe I can
make it as an actress?

I think it's nice, Fausto, that
you're happy with so little.

I'm much more into
cuddling and reality shows.

[Bia] But other people
sometimes need more.

Didn't you say something
about a boyfriend?

The first of many months

What happened there?

[Bia] I don't know what happened to
you, but I wanted to tell you that

I've never seen anyone wear
animal print as well as you.

- Can I meet you at the park exit?
- Fifteen minutes?

Add private account

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Why are you cheating on me?

I'm so unhappy.

So you're the chef here?

Do you want to be the Detective?

[door unlocks]

Very minimalist style.

Yeah, I broke up with my ex.

- She took almost everything...
- I just broke up with someone too.

- Really?
- Uh-huh.

When was that?

Forty minutes ago. [chuckles]

Like three minutes before
I sat down at that party.

And are you okay?

I've had worse breakups.

[sighs] Worse how?

Wait. Wait, wait.

I thought we could get to
know each other better first.

- [sighs]
- Are you hungry?

Do you eat meat? I
make a great burger.

Hold on. Have a
seat. Just a second.

I'll make it real quick.

Hold on.

I know that guys who usually
cook to impress others

usually make something fancier, but
my burgers are super impressive.

When I was a kid,
I loved fast food.

But my mom said it
was bad for you.

And she would promise to make me
a much better version at home.

She owned a diner
before getting married.

And so, ever since, whenever I
have to unwind, I try a new recipe.

The one I'm making you
today is called Wisconsin.

Wisconsin.

So tell me.

- Are you in college?
- I'm in high school.

Come on, dude. Don't
joke about that.

I finished my first
semester of psychology

but had to take a break
because I couldn't afford it.

But I'm already working
and saving up to go back.

- Working with what?
- Thanks.

I'm a camgirl.

And I also sell some adult
content on a few platforms.

Wow, that's so sexy.

And you?

I have a lamp store.

Wow, that's so sexy.

[chuckles]

Mmm.

So good!

- Do you like it?
- I like it.

Nice job.

Mmm.

Do you mind if I
smoke over there?

Only because you'll die early and
we'll have less time together.

No worries.

All the best parts of
life are fleeting, right?

Yeah.

You should smoke.

Everyone should
smoke, to be honest.

Everyone is unhappy,
everyone is lost.

Everyone is alone.

Smoking makes me
feel less alone.

Because I curl up in my corner.
I light up, I take a drag.

I think when someone
has a cigarette,

they're holding up a sign
that says, "Alone on purpose.

Please do not disturb."

My dad died of lung cancer.

Wow, I'm sorry. I should
have thought before speaking,

- No, I'm joking, I'm joking!
- I was callous, what an as*h*le…

I just said that to
get under your skin.

I'm sorry, I was
joking. [laughs]

Let's go to your room?

Look, I-I have to
be honest with you.

- Huh?
- I'm kind of…

my head's all messed
up because of my ex.

Can I f*ck your head
up for good, then?

I'm in rio. I need
to talk to you.

♪ I like you so much ♪

♪ I'd actually rather hide it ♪

♪ I just leave it
Between the lines ♪

♪ Like an idea that
exists in our minds ♪

♪ And is not at all
required To come true ♪

episode 4 nothing

[moaning, panting]

You can sleep here if you want.

I don't sleep over
at anyone's house.

[Victor] This is me now.

And this was only the first
lighter Paula forgot at my house.

[doorbell rings]

Today's burger is
called Vancouver.

[pants]

[doorbell rings]

This one is called Missouri.

[door bell rings]

This one is called Tennessee.

Hi, Tennessee.

[Bia] This is me now.

Just one more person lined up to audition
for a soap opera based on the Bible.

When suddenly, a
miracle happens.

@alice_martinsss accepted
your friend request

This is me now.

Stalking someone you're
interested in is an art form.

And it's one of the great
pleasures of modern life.

Honey bear

But the bad thing
about being a stalker

is learning things you
wish you didn't know.

So grateful for my family

Any tips on what you're into so
we can try to make things better?

You are way too nice.

Got it.

I'll watch some videos to try to
be better prepared for next time.

Who said there's going
to be a next time?

You always come back
for the free food.

I know it. It's hard
to surprise me, Victor.

Are there lots of really
weird things on that site?

I'd like to see it someday.

Want to see it now?

- Here?
- Yeah.

Here.

Come here.

Are you going to, like, have cybersex
with them here in front of me?

Cybersex?

How old are you?

I just mean that I should know when I'm
seeing someone who was born in Pangea.

Some guys just like to talk.

Just talk.

And some others ask for more.

But I also only do
what I want, love.

In my chat room, my wishes
are all that matters.

There.

And today I want you
to perform with me.

Me?

[chuckles] Are you nuts?

Way too nice,
aren't you, Victor?

[clicks tongue]

Shh!

Be quiet.

Hi.

[person 1] Hmm, I miss
seeing you online.

I changed my schedule, baby.

But I miss you too.

[viewer] How do you
want to play today?

However you want.

I'm yours.

[viewer] Then take
it all off for me.

No.

That's way too fast.
I don't like that.

Only if you send
me a little gift.

[viewer] Do you have any
toys there that you can use?

I'm at a boy's house today.

I don't have anything
with me, but…

we can get creative.

Actually, he can join us.

Just send us another little gift and
you can choose what he'll do to me.

So this is what you like, then?

[sighs]

[panting]

[moaning]

Hi.

Want to try a cream puff
from that new bakery?

I'm feeling kind of sad. I was
rejected at another audition.

I'm kind of busy!

Can we go next week?

Can you talk?

BOB BALLOON HEAD

[phone buzzing]

Hi.

No way! Did you put makeup
on for a video call?

No, no. I was at an audition

and they did my makeup there.

What did you want to talk about?

I was having a bad day again.

I had two options: Find a chick to
flirt with or call up the old chick.

The old chick is
happy you called her.

- Want to tell me about your shitty day?
- I can tell you

all about me.

But let's not do that, okay?

And I don't want to know anything
about you or about your real life.

I liked pretending I was
someone else with you.

Glamorizing you.

And how you saved me from
my awful, boring life.

I'm never going
to give it all up.

But I want to fantasize about
that with you every now and then.

Does that make sense?

Look, I've deluded
myself with men so often,

it's nice to delude myself with a woman
too, just to shake things up a bit.

We deserved at least a goodbye.

Okay, bye.

Bye.

[laughs]

Could you write some sad stuff to
cheer me up every now and then?

I like what you write
in your posts, you know?

I read it and thought, "Now this
one is messed up in the head.

She'll understand me."

And that's it.

I've got to get back to work.

I'm sorry for hurting you.

You also made me feel like
my life was less boring.

I felt alive.

Cheers to the ones who make us
feel alive despite the pain.

[chuckles]

Cheers to the ones

who make us feel
alive despite the pain

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wow, bia, you
should be a writer.

I would spend all day
reading what you write.

@rafaban read this.

write more, bia,
love your posts.

I love this so much!
you are so good

"It began to bloom within me…

- [Victor] This is me now.
- [Paula reading aloud]

Paula likes to read her
favorite texts out loud for me.

When we talk, it's always
about books, movies.

I wish she knew that no
character from a book

could ever interest me
as much as she does.

But she never opens up.

- At least not to me.
- [laughs] …Balsa... Balsaminaceae…"

Wow.

This much LED lighting
is personally offensive.

What's your issue
with LED lights?

LEDs almost made
my dad go bankrupt.

Oh…

This aesthetic aberration
invaded people's homes

and they started thinking it looks
better than the lamps we sell.

Of course. They're cheap.

[sighs]

What's the matter?

We've been together two months and
I don't know anything about you.

Open up to me.

I didn't mean "open
up" in that sense.

In what sense do
you mean it, then?

You know.

Hi.

Tell me you love me?

I love you.

Tell me I'm the
love of your life.

You're the love of my life.

Tell me a safe word, in
case I go over your limit.

No need.

Do whatever you want to me.

You won't hit my limit.

But... Say the first
thing that comes to mind.

[sighs]

Rug.

"Mom, you didn't get
what I said, Mom.

I think we need to
take this chance to..."

Sorry.

Uh, did you see a phone I left
charging here. I think it was here?

- Uh-huh. Here it is.
- Whew! I was worried.

I was worried someone
might sit on top of it.

Thanks. No, it's okay.

Although I don't think
it could get any worse.

I tossed this phone from
the top of a Ferris wheel.

- That's f*cking crazy.
- [both chuckle]

No, but I get you.

My phone won't record audio messages
anymore, or even make calls.

I've been auditioning for six months,
man. I can't get a single part.

Welcome to life as an actress.

Are you in much of a hurry?

Because I'm so anxious and I
need to go over these lines.

If you could…

I can help you, but

I don't know how much help
I'll be, because I'm awful.

Any help you can
give me. Thanks.

That smile is great.

That one you just gave me.
For-For that line about the mom.

- Really? Okay.
- Yeah.

I'll even write it down here.

I'm very detail-oriented.

I'm very, very insistent.

I rehearse in front of the mirror. I
get... Can I be that way with you too?

Please. If they cast
me, I'll buy you a beer.

- Okay?
- Yeah.

Let's start.

I got the part!

You are the best director!

Messages CONVERSATIONS

sorry if I did anything

where are you?

[Victor] This is me
now, with no answer.

Want to do anything today?

[sighs] I hate it
when she disappears.

Is everything okay?

[viewer, distorted] Have
you ever truly liked anyone?

Have you ever been in love?

The last time I was
in love, I was 17.

And he was 30.

He destroyed me.

When we met, he kept
saying I was cute.

That I was too nice.

I didn't want to
be cute or nice.

I felt like he was
calling me small.

Saying I wasn't enough for him.

[viewer, distorted] Are
you dating anyone now?

[Paula] Absolutely not.

I don't want to get
involved with anyone.

One day you fall in love with
someone who screws you over

and f*ck you up in a way you
can never ever recover from.

And then in every other
relationship you ever have,

you'll spread this damn thing
you've caught, because it's a virus.

And then you f*ck up
this other person's mind,

who will f*ck up someone else's mind,
who will f*ck up someone else's mind.

It's an endless contagion.

And that's what we become.

A bunch of zombies devouring
everything we see before us,

without thinking or
feeling anything.

Thanks.

Hey there, all good?

Can I get a beer?

Are you following me?

You're the one in
my neighborhood.

- Here you go.
- Thanks.

Then enjoy your neighborhood.

Maybe we'll run into
each other later.

- Wait, wait, wait.
- Mmm.

I saw in your stories
that you were here.

[scoffs]

If I didn't reply to your messages,
it's because I didn't want to see you.

We are not a thing.

Paula, we've been seeing
each other for a year.

Maybe we're not committed,
but we're not nothing either.

We just have sex.

We're two people who meet up
to have sex every now and then,

and who just happen to have
been doing it for a year.

One year.

We could stop.

Want to stop?

It's not normal to glamorize you…
You made me feel so much pain,

it's smart of me to remember you as
amazing [so that it was worth it].

[doorbell rings]

Fifty-seven.

Fifty-seven what?

Fifty-seven unread messages.

[laughs]

Why now?

A year later?

If you want, we can keep
ignoring each other's existence.

Or we can find a-a
better time for you...

Bia, for God's sake, I could
never pretend you don't exist.

In fact, there hasn't
been a single day

since we met that I
haven't thought about you.

Oh, that is so cheesy.

I doubt it.

- Really.
- When do you think about me?

Whenever I see someone with sauce
on their mouth, for example,

- I think of you.
- Huh.

Yeah. And it just comes flooding
in. During the day. At night.

Sometimes I wake in the middle
of the night thinking of you.

[chuckles] Bia, you don't know
how often I argued with my

shampoo bottle in the shower,
reliving our last conversation.

You know what I'm saying?

Well, I hope you and your shampoo
bottle had a happier ending than we did.

Excuse me, Marcelo.

Why now?

Because I

decided to write a play.

Loosely based on us.

And I'm the villain? [chuckles]

No, because I don't believe
in that villain stuff.

I think that we're human.

- We make mistakes.
- Listen, Bia, one of your friends told me

you nicknamed me the Mussolini
of love and commitment.

So, now that's not a villain?

I wanted... I kind of
wanted to interview you.

To hear your side.

So that I wouldn't write
a clichéd version of you.

Of us.

Victor, could you stop being
such a child and answer me,

please, because
I need your help?

It's urgent.

[chattering]

- What?
- [sigh]

I'm going to the bathroom.
I'll be right back.

I did you a favor, Victor.

She's a bad kisser and she ate
something that tasted like shrimp.

Her mouth was so nasty.

Thanks.

I desperately need help
from a responsible adult.

And you're the only one I know.

I thought we were just sex.

We can have sex
while you help me.

What do you need help with?

My tax returns. [sighs]

You want to have sex while
I fill out your tax returns?

Didn't you want to surprise me?

Huh?

That's a way of having sex
I've never tried in my life.

What's wrong with
your tax returns?

I've never filed my tax returns.

I never reported anything I got from
the site, from any site, ever...

I-I didn't know I
had to do that sh*t.

What's going to happen to me?
Am I going to be arrested?

Victor?

No.

No, you won't be arrested.

One of my best friends
is an accountant.

I can call her but
on one condition.

- Hmm, showing your true colors.
- Yeah.

- [laughing]
- Only if you sleep here with me tonight.

Sleep with you tonight?

Mm-hmm.

- Okay. But no cuddling.
- No.

We will cuddle, and we'll watch
reality shows until we fall asleep.

I cannot believe you're
making me do this.

- Yeah. That's the offer.
- Mmm.

Take it or leave it. Or
else you're getting audited.

[reality show contestant] Your
tongue is my favorite tongue.

I-I don't care if I lose the
game, as long as I kiss you.

[Paula] My God in heaven.

- Really?
- [Victor laughs]

- Really.
- [laughs] This is so embarrassing.

[contestant 2] I'm
sorry. I can't.

- [Victor] Popcorn?
- [Helena] Thanks.

Holy cow, you make that
much taking naked pictures?

And video calls.

Cool.

Honey, what do you think?

Should we try it too?

We might even be able to afford
that honeymoon we never went on.

Do you think the Internet would be
interested in a couple of lesbos like us?

Very much. Very, very much.

- Let me see your foot.
- My foot?

Your foot is gorgeous. Man, they would
pay a fortune for this second toe here

- that's bigger than your big toe.
- Really?

A fortune. Armpit.

Do you like your armpit?

Let me see.

- Do you like it?
- Photos of armpits

are totally booming right
now. It's the hottest thing.

- Honestly, people are hooked.
- Just... Really? Just your armpit?

- [Paula] Just armpits, or hands, or feet.
- My armpit is kind of cool.

- [Paula] Kind of cool, is it?
- It's awesome.

Two bucks.

- [Paula] You could make some money.
- I like mine.

[Bia] Uh…

I'm free today for another
interview for your play.

Meet me in 30min

- [Bia] I have to go.
- Where?

It's a... I forgot.

I had a... an audition.

- But I... We'll talk later.
- Okay, girl.

- Love ya. Good luck.
- Love ya, love ya.

- Good luck.
- Break a leg.

That's what you say, right?

- Is that what you say?
- I think so.

I don't know if I reached out
to you because of the play

or if I only started writing the play
to have a reason to reach out to you.

I don't know if I
was toxic, heartless

cruel with other
people who loved me

because when you did that to me, you
turned me into that type of person.

Or if I turned into that type of person
so that, if we ever got together again,

things would be less unequal.

Do you know any good movies
about a healthy couple?

[laughs] So…

So.

Your friends saved me, Victor.

Thanks.

Really.

Don't you want to
spend the night?

I thought our deal only
applied to yesterday.

Yeah, but, I don't
know, I thought...

Didn't we have a
great day today?

I loved our day.

[Paula sighs]

Over a year now, and you still
don't feel anything for me?

I do.

I love you.

You mean that?

Of course I mean it.

Then date me.

No.

I love you, but I
love my freedom more.

And who I am today.

Why haven't you
ever mentioned me?

What do you mean? To whom?

MagicSex89.

SadBoylnLove.

Lazy Jack.

CuddleBone03.

LonelyAndHorny.

MonPetitLoup2023.

Over the course of this year,
I created eight fake profiles

to talk to you when you
disappeared and I missed you.

I changed the username,
but they were all me.

I never asked you to do anything
sexual, or even take off your clothes.

I-I just wanted to talk.

Just to hear your voice.

Just to hear from you.

You opened up to all of them.

You talked all about your ex who
traumatized you to CuddleBone03.

You talked about the
adventures you were having

with everyone you hooked up with
over the course of the year,

but you never said
one word about me.

It's as if I had
never existed for you.

Why did you never talk about me?

Say something, Paula.

Rug.

- Come here...
- Rug.

I didn't mean to
invade your privacy,

I just wanted to hear you talk about
me, to know you cared about me.

- I'm sorry.
- No.

I was always honest with you.

And you weren't.

I want you to unbutton your
pants and take them off.

I want you to
unbutton your pants

and take them off.

Don't touch me.

That's the last time in your life
you will ever come inside me.

[footsteps departing]

[door opens, shuts]

[Victor] This is me now.

And this is the last lighter
she ever forgot at my house.

Thanks.

[Bia] This is me now,
after yet another audition

for yet another soap
opera based on the Bible.

But this time the miracle
is that I'm not suffering.

what about when the person in your
audition panel is badly dressed?

On the contrary. I'm writing about
what's happening so I can turn

all this suffering into an
entertaining story I can tell.

my ex posted a story saying how
he only falls in love with weirdos

Now I'm writing about
everything that happens to me.

This is me now,

trying not to think about the people
who will criticize everything I write.

Trying not to think that they'll
call me ridiculous, call me a phony,

call me... call me boring,

call me cheesy, spoiled, vapid,
stupid, irrelevant, arrogant.

Trying to hate
myself a little less.

Trying to finish it.

And not stop midway through
because I think it's all sh*t.

This is me now.

Trying to think that
I'm not terrible.

Trying to think that
my ideas are good.

Trying to think
that I can do this.

Trying to think of
what story I can tell.