01x05 - Essa sou eu agora

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[Bia] It was the most intense night of
my life. And we didn't even have sex.

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- No, Fausto. My dorky side is all yours.
- I'm glad.

Why did you want a relationship
if you were going to cheat?

- I love you, I swear!
- No, you do not f*cking love me, Marcelo.

Ah, you guys, you only
live once, damn it.

[Victor] I'm kind of... My head's
all messed up because of my ex.

[Paula] Can I f*ck your
head up for good, then?

So this is what you like, then?

You like your best friend too?

I used to.

A lot. In the beginning.

If everything goes wrong,
we at least have each other.

Always.

Want to try a cream puff
from that new bakery?

I'm kind of busy!

can we go next week?

[doorbell rings]

Why now? A year later?

I don't know if I reached out
to you because of the play

or if I only started writing the play
to have a reason to reach out to you.

I like you so much

I'd actually rather hide it

I just leave it
Between the lines

Like an idea that
exists in our minds

And is not at all
required to come true

episode 5 This is me now

Aw, stop judging me, you guys.

- Deep down, it's your fault, okay?
- Hmm?

It's definitely not mine.

I've told you to go to
therapy so many times

that I'm now talking about your
problems with my therapist.

But it's because living
with you two is maddening.

You're both so perfect.

- Uh, Helena snores.
- Wow!

And Erika doesn't go to the
dentist. She's full of tartar.

- Ew, really?
- Oh, that's disgusting.

Hey, you guys, it's because
I'm scared they'll knock me out

and put veneers in there
without my consent, okay?

Stop calling me out.

No, it's your connection that's
so perfect. It's so rare.

And it puts a lot of f*cking
pressure on everyone else, man.

The only person I've ever had
any connection with was Marcelo.

[groans]

It's always nice to catch up
on all your mental problems,

- but I have to go home.
- She doesn't even pretend.

That's your problem. You
guys always leave too early.

- That's the couple's flaw.
- I figured it out!

- I figured out your flaw.
- [laughing]

- [Helena] Bye.
- Bye.

Are you leaving too?

No, I was just going
to grab another beer.

- Why?
- Oh, okay.

Do you have to meet
up with Marcelo?

It's cool, you know, because
once you guys got back together,

I never see you anymore.

Oh, so now it's Marcelo's fault?

You did the same thing when you
started going out with your camgirl.

- Me?
- Yeah.

[chuckles] Look, you can't... you
can't even find anything to say.

If you want, we can go get a cream
puff from that 24-hour bakery.

I told Marcelo I'd
sleep over at his place.

But I can never say no to eating
a cream puff with you, Fausto.

Cream puffs and beer, then?

Cream puffs and beer.

I'll pay the bill, and you
pay for the cream puffs.

Okay.

[whistles]

I'll be outside, okay?

I also had some fries.
Did you include those?

Good night.

- Should we go?
- Yeah.

What's wrong?

What's that face? You
look like you saw a ghost.

I basically did.

Paula.

Aw. [puffs, scoffs]

Aw, are you serious?
[clicks tongue]

sh*t, Fausto, forget about
that girl. Get over it.

Oh, says the expert
in getting over it.

Mmm...

Thank you.

Thank you.

Are you really going to
brood over that toxic chick?

As if we can control
who we think about.

It's weird. I still
have dreams about her.

Hmm.

Sex dreams.

Seriously?

[laughing]

What?

Sorry, I don't know, it's weird.

You never talk about sex,
we never talk about sex,

I've never heard you talk about
sex. It's weird, I don't know.

- Yeah, forget it.
- [laughs]

- Never mind.
- No, no.

You can talk about it.
You can, I'm... Shh.

No more giggling from me.

[stammers] Paula liked some
things that were a bit different.

She said I was too nice.

She always wanted me
to dominate her, like,

control her, like, boss
her around somehow.

And she liked me to
tie her up to things,

like, to the bed, or like, to
the countertop in my apartment.

We spent hours and hours
and hours having sex.

It was amazing.

When we were having sex, it was
like the whole world stopped.

[Bia] This is me now, feeling
horny for my best friend.

To be honest, this
isn't the first time.

Hey girl, where r u?

I'm super late, sorry!!

This is me five years ago.

Hurry up! i'm alone here

i don't know anyone

[chuckles]

- [Giovana] I was looking for you.
- [chuckles]

"Go on, go on, spin round and
round to the rhythm of the party."

[all laughing]

Go, Bia, you try too. Go on.

I don't know how.

- Go on, you're an actress.
- I don't know how.

"Oh, but you're an
actress." I don't know how.

- [guest] Try.
- "Ma, hi. Come here."

[Victor snickers]

- [Giovana] Oh, girl, no.
- See? I don't know how.

- What else does he say?
- [guest] Try.

"Ma!" Tongue out.

- Stick out your tongue. "Hi."
- What do you mean stick out my tongue?

[pop music playing on speaker]

- Ma... Hi!
- Ah!

[laughing] Sorry, I didn't...

Hey, if it makes you feel any
better, my impression of Fausto

is way worse than your
impression of Silvio.

Let's hear it.

"Hey, that's crazy, you
guys. Crazy, crazy, crazy."

[laughing] It's so bad.

You switch to Luciano
Huck out of nowhere.

That's true.

I'm Victor. Nice to meet you.

But you can call me Fausto.

I'm Bia.

Or Silvio.

[both laugh]

What's up, kids?

Want some E?

Yeah.

- Thanks.
- Thanks.

Dude, I don't... I've
never taken this, I don't…

Neither have I. But I always accept
it, so they'll think I'm cool.

That's all.

…enjoy the morning, and he says, "Go on,
do more, be more expansive, like this."

And today is my last day!

And I'm doing it like this...
Doing it like this for him.

[laughs]

[both laughing]

[chuckles]

- Hey, hey, hey, hey. Hey.
- Sorry.

Sorry, you're g*y.

Aw, sh*t, how f*cking stupid.

I thought... I was thinking you were
g*y, I was wondering the whole night.

For a while I thought you were bi, then I
wasn't sure, maybe bi but just at parties.

- g*y, but you hook up with friends?
- I'm not g*y, I just have a girlfriend.

Then why were you
flirting with me?

I wasn't flirting with you.

- You were totally flirting with me.
- Definitely not.

Why didn't I accept
your kiss, then?

- That makes sense.
- Clearly.

So, where is she, then?

She's at another party
with her college friends.

And you weren't invited?

I'll bet you 50 bucks right now that you
were cheated on at some point tonight.

[chuckles]

Are you sure you don't
want to hook up with me?

Uh, no, I just thought you were
cool. I think we could be friends.

You talk a lot. I
talk very little.

It's a good combination.

I don't know if I believe in this
notion of guys and girls being friends.

All my guy friends have
tried to hook up with me.

Do you want to be friends
with someone who rejected you?

[chuckles]

If you try to hook up with me when
you find out you were cheated on,

I'm going to be so
pissed at you, got it?

You'll be dead to me. I'll
never look you in the eye again.

Okay. [chuckling] Sounds good.

Do you want to grab something
to eat from a bakery near here?

[Bia] Cheers.

- To our dreams.
- [laughs] To our dreams.

Let me get a little piece!

[phone buzzing]

[buzzing continues]

This is me now, waking up from a dream
that was much sweeter than I expected.

Missed call

- [motorists arguing]
- [car horns honking]

sh*t! Stop here.

[honking continues]

Ferreira's Lamps

Tell me you sell ring lights.

[sighs] Did you know that asking
for a ring light in a lamp store

is like asking for sushi
at an Italian restaurant?

- Wait a minute, I know you.
- You do?

And now, unfortunately,
I know you too.

Hold on. Are you this rude to
everyone who comes in here?

That's why your store
is empty, you know?

You think you're better than me,

working at a store that
sells this atrocity.

What about that sh*t? How
much power does this sh*t use?

Without a doubt, your power
bill costs more than the sun's.

Look, will you forgive my rudeness if
I tell you that I watched your show

and I really wanted you to win?

Really?

I'll forgive you if you let me
record a video here in your store.

I have to join a
live in five minutes.

I had totally forgotten. I
was on my way to a party.

I just have to join this live.

If I don't, I'll have to pay
a fine of one million reais.

Can you help me?

Please, I'll take
a selfie with you.

Huh?

- Of course.
- Go on, then.

- Okay. What-what do you need?
- Uh...

- I prefer a white light, like this one.
- Okay. No, wait.

- No, no, no. Yeah.
- White light?

No, I'm going to find better lighting.
You can relax. Sit there. Relax.

I'm going to join
in five minutes...

- Five minutes? Wait.
- I'm going to be a little late.

- Can't you make it ten? Wait up.
- No, three for you. Three for you.

So, you guys, it's an honor for me
to be the ambassador for this brand.

Seriously, I was counting down
the seconds to join this live.

It's all I've been able
to think about this week.

Wow, I can see that. Yeah. And the
background you arranged is beautiful.

Is that your house?

No, I'm at my good
friend's store.

Uh, I recommend it. And this
is not an ad, okay, guys?

I'm here at…

- Ferreira's Lamps.
- At Ferreira's Lamps.

They don't just sell lamps.

They sell works of art.
Look at this, for example.

Right here, look at
how beautiful this is.

It-it-it tells a
story, you guys.

I don't know, I get
emotional just looking at it.

Did you like it?

[sighs]

Today is probably the
best day of my life.

sh*t, that sounded crazy,
right? What a lame thing to say.

No, no.

It was cute.

All of Brazil wants me.

But when guys finally
manage to get me,

they pretend like it was
nothing, that it was no big deal.

I don't know, to look cool.

What! I'm setting off fireworks.

Come here!

I liked the other one better.

[chuckles]

Dude, I love you, but I
forbid you to fall in love

with a woman who is
totally out of your league.

Because she's going to grab a big bat and
hit a fastball straight into your chest.

She's the one pursuing me.

She followed me from a secret
profile and asked me out on a date.

I'm not getting my hopes up.

Victor, you're watching a
clip of her best moments.

I don't have anything
against Eduardo.

But if he dies,
nobody will miss him.

Wow, Rian. That's wonderful...

A little bit...

I'm doing it for the story. I know it
won't turn into anything. But it's fun.

- [contestants arguing]
- This is my truth!

She took a picture of my store.

And now my dad's little shop
is on every gossip site.

It's the most random thing that's
happened to me. You can't say no to that.

Look at this.

An ad for a slimming girdle, a photo
from a VIP room, Juvenal's shop.

Look at this!

- So, do you like it?
- Mmm!

What a f*cking
delicious hamburger.

- It's like an angel is French kissing me.
- [chuckles]

Mmm!

- Is everything okay?
- Mm-hmm.

It's this guy I'm hooking
up with. Such a hottie.

But he's so annoying, and so clingy!
No need to get jealous, okay?

[scoffs] I've let go of
that. I've suffered enough.

If someone sees my
value, they'll show me.

This guy you're texting and ignoring
because of me, is that Deivisson?

- Deivisson who plays for Flamengo?
- Mm-hmm.

Seriously?

Holy sh*t, I'm in a love
triangle with you and Deivisson?

It's more of an octagon.

- Really?
- Mm-hmm.

- sh*t.
- [tapping on phone]

Can you text him pretending to be
me while I eat? I can't be bothered.

- Go on!
- Really?

Mm-hmm.

I'm a Botafogo fan.

Trolling a Flamengo player
will be karmic revenge

on behalf of the entire
Botafogo fan base.

Should I take a pic
to send him? Too much?

[phone chimes]

Silvio, I don't know what
time you're waking up today,

but Gi invited you to a
party at her house later.

She wants to meet you.

And, oh, you can bring that
shitty f*ck of yours, okay?

Love ya. See you later.

What should we do today?

- [pop music playing]
- [party guests chattering]

Look, there's Victor. Come here!

- Hey.
- [Victor] Hey.

- How's it going? I'm Lucas.
- [Victor] Hey. How's it going?

Oh, Lucas. So, sh*t,
it's-it's your manager...

- Birthday?
- Yes, my birthday, manager, that's me.

Make yourself at home, dude.

I have to go say "what's
up" to the gin sponsor.

Sit here.

[guest] Let's go!

How are you?

So, can I kiss you or will it look
bad to the other sides of the octagon?

No one here is the
jealous type. Go ahead.

Hmm. Speaking of that,
look who's over there.

- Is that Deivisson?
- Mm-hmm. [laughs]

What is he doing here?
He has a game tomorrow.

Why are you looking
at me like that?

No, it's just, you're acting different.
You're acting a little strange.

I'm scared of losing you again,

so I'm going to take advantage
of this moment to look at you,

up close, before you ditch me.

Marcelo, we're not even back together
yet and you're worried about breaking up.

We're not back together?

Look at you. You're so
cute when you're insecure.

- f*ck, Bia, don't joke about that, man.
- You look so cute!

- Look at me. f*ck!
- Look how cute you are.

Wait a minute. No, wait a minute,
I have to... Can I take a picture?

- I'm a photographer.
- [Marcelo chuckles]

- Go on, Silvio.
- [chuckling] Your face.

- [chuckling] Like this? Was that okay?
- Poor guy!

- Silvio. Silvio!
- Oh, Fausto!

Gi, this is Bia, my best
friend I told you about.

Oh, Bia!

- I've heard so much about you!
- Me too.

- [Victor] This is Marcelo.
- [Giovana] How are you?

- [Bia] Good.
- Happy birthday.

No, actually, it's not my
birthday. It's my manager's.

He's over there. Lucas.

I just take advantage of any opportunity
to get everyone together at my place.

So if you guys need to
celebrate a birthday,

baptism, wedding, my home is
your home. It's available.

- Thank you.
- Thank you.

Would you grab us a drink?

- Sure.
- Gin?

- I could do gin.
- Yeah?

- Yeah.
- Be right back.

- Okay.
- Gin?

Yeah, thank you. [chuckles]

Victor told me
you're really smart,

that you're cultured, that you
write well, that sort of thing.

Oh, he said that? He's a liar.

Would you come up with a caption for me,
something clever to post under a photo?

I want to be taken seriously
among this audience.

Oh, thanks.

Hey, two gin and tonics, please.

I know you don't like me very
much, but I really do love Bia.

Things are going to be
very different this time.

It's not that I don't like you,

it's just that I think the world would be
a much better place if you didn't exist.

If you ever hurt Bia again, my only
goal in life will be to end yours.

- Thank you.
- You're welcome.

[pop music playing]

[sighs]

[shrieks]

What the hell, Silvio!

[chuckles]

What's the matter? What's
bothering you, huh?

Did you not like Giselle?

No, she's sweet.

Did you see the stories
I helped her create?

[both laughing]

Come here.

Oh, Fausto.

I don't know, it's so hard.

What happened?

Was it not special with
Marcelo? Was the sex bad?

No, it was great.

Actually, it-it was excellent.

- Oh, yeah?
- Yeah.

I know you're against it,
and that you judge me.

But I also know that you
want to see me happy.

What's your advice?

Do I go all in, once and for all,
do I keep him at arm's length,

or do I give up and run away?

The pros of you
staying with Marcelo.

- Hmm.
- He's undeniably handsome.

- That jawline is impressive.
- Mm-hmm.

He's so tall his ancestors
must have been trees.

The cons.

Everything else?

Want some E?

- Thanks!
- Yup!

What do you want to do?

Want to get out of here?
I'll leave with you.

Want to go back to him? I
won't judge you, I promise.

The only side I'm
on here is yours.

Always, okay?

[Bia] This is me now.

Divided.

Come with me.

- Hey! Do you still have some E?
- Mm-hmm.

- Thank you.
- No problem, sweetie.

- What's that?
- Swallow.

Holy sh*t! You drugged
me! Why did you do that?

I was fine. I don't want a bad
trip. Am I going to have a bad trip?

No. I have a lot to tell you

and I wouldn't be able to if
I wasn't under the influence.

But did I need to be under
the influence to hear it?

What? So I'd be out of my mind on
my own? And you need to talk too.

Say what?

Calm down. It hasn't hit yet.

I'm feeling strange.
Am I acting strange?

- No, Victor. You're great.
- Did something happen?

- I am?
- Come on.

Holy sh*t, look at this ant.

I've never seen such a
beautiful ant in all my life.

Look at how she walks.
Look how elegant she is.

Seriously, I'm not even
going to finish this cake.

I'm going to leave it for her.

She deserves it.

I think it has hit you.

Oh! I feel so attracted to you.

To the ant?

No. No!

No, I feel attracted to you.

As a friend?

Who the f*ck tells someone they're
attracted to them as a friend?

Have you never felt
anything for me?

Have I always been your
sister, your best friend?

Hang on, I-I'm going over
there. Be right back.

I-I'll be right back.

"Hang on, be right back?"

[sighs, puffs]

What was your life
like after we broke up?

I tried to turn
everyone into you.

I taught them how to
take suglies. [chuckles]

I brought them to
the same places.

I tried to turn some of them into
muses for my exhibitions, but…

my work has never
been so mediocre.

That's one of the cutest and sickest
things anyone has ever said to me.

I'll be right back.

[Bia, Marcelo chuckle]

Fausto, stop!

Tell me if you feel
anything for me.

- Do you want me to say it first?
- Sure.

I'll say it first. Okay.

The fact that you
exist makes me accept…

everything I can't control.

I care so much less about
all of my countless failures.

Because I have you to
talk about them with.

And to make fun of the
people involved in them.

And… [chuckles]

…there are so many people in
the world, with so much money,

but without a Victor.

I like you too, I...

Damn.

Good thing our speeches
are similarly expressive.

- What do you want me to say?
- [laughing] Everything!

Tomorrow we can blame everything on
the E if you regret it, it's fine.

But for now, please, tell me
if you feel anything for me.

Tell me everything that's
going through your head.

Okay.

[stammers]

If I had to choose someone to
kiss today, it would be you.

If I had to choose one person to kiss
for the rest of my life, it would be you.

If I had to choose only one person to
exist in this world, it would be you.

If I had to choose the first
face I saw when I woke up

every morning for the rest of
my life, it would be yours.

And if I also had to choose the last face
I want to see when I'm old and dying,

it would also be yours.

If I had to make any choice
in life, it would be you.

Without thinking twice.

You. Always you.

All the pictures I
took of you are yours.

These ones here have
some notes at the bottom

with what I was thinking
about when I photographed you.

You wanted my part of the text?

There it is, you can use it.

Bia…

thank you so much for letting
me back into your life.

[Bia] This is me now,

living one of these
moments in reality

and the other, in
my imagination.